hello,well today i gave the lardasses cookies and marble cake but mirrah was absent so im giving her tomorrow.and tomorrow the 30th is also someone's birthday.hahaha randomness.im just htinking and i realized that when i started discussing the drama camp with the main comm,i turned into a jerk.a really awful jerk.well,what with my foster parents fighting for my custody in court,this small squabbles in the main comm and everyhting else.see,my biological parents have been found but...i dont feel comfortable around them.i feel like a rich brat that is self centered.i dont noe how much ive changed.i am somewhat intruding into mirrah's privacy somehow.she told izza that i was reading her private post the day hadi brought up the whole thing(friday)but she didnt tell me honestly.i like it when people tell me my bad qualities than my good coz i try to change..well i duno,i wish mirrah was more open to my feelings.so i think im just going to keep my distance from her for a while

i duno if i should trust you
coz half my heart rages with temper
while the other says that you are a bestie
i was the middlemen when you fought with the stalker
but when i wanted her replaced
you took it seriously and told her
you started a war
a war that leaves me thinking whether i should trust you
or not
and so,i asked for advice from the chocolate breadmaker
and she says"follow and believe your heart,trust her for who she is in your heart"
and so,i dont noe what to do

story of my life
never told to anyone.
i want to let you noe
let you noe that its time to tell you
ive been waiting for so long
and i finally forget about you
coz i find unrequited love hard to get through
i just wanna let u noe that im sorry
coz i still love you.
im really desperate for you,i admit
but truthfully,i sincerely love you
and i never wanna let u down if u give me a chance
my heart is closed,im never going to open those doors
for you coz for all u noe,the next time you knock on my door
not love will be revealed.but the ocean of my heart
i wanna scream for mercy but somehow the voice is trapped down
i love you i really do

day by day
hour by hour
where friends turn into besties
where besties turn to backstabbers
where besties turn into molestors
this is my life
a life where the light keeps fading away
a life where only darkness can fill
you guys were my life.
but with one person gone,the darkness is taking me away
the revolution i called us
but turns out that we were meant to be like this
when i was frens wif calista and gang,they framed me of upskirting
when im frens with cheryl and brandon they comforted me
but i still felt emptyness
and i searched for a revolution
and i found the lardasses
now its our first crisis
if i side hadi,i'll have to abandon the others
if i side mirrah,i'll never know who is correct
but if i side both,i'll be torn apart
im confused.
working out my solutions to this complicated piece of problem
inspiration comes from places that i least expect
high school musical,camp rock,hannah montana
but some come from politics
i have to find a propaganda
to solve this problem
this is me
this is ahmad asyraf abdullah
this is the life of a future politician

i smell the air of victory and promotion
maysarah quit as stage manager
and im taking over.i feel guilty
but happy at the same time,what is
to happen if im fired?
i can only hope for the best

i just need to add this prayer in to protect all my beloved frens.read this 2 thousand times and god will give u watever u want in this few days

allohuma innaka ufuun karimun tuhibbul aafwa faafuanna

stay strong lardasses

the revolution of frens i called u.
the perfect people i am with i thought
i thought i ran away from all the evil things in the world
but i guess i was wrong.i duno who to
trust anymore,i dont noe who to believe
it has been 2 weeks since the lardasses came together
and yet today,tonight,i feel like ive lost everything
that means a lot to me.people r interfering with our crisis
but i just dont wanna let them do it
i feel lost,locked from my own comfort zone
and im stuck wif my decision.
people are telling me that i made the wrong decision
but im feeling down and low
and i hope this is over soon
may allah save and protect us all
and give us patience at all times

well hello,just came back from mirrah's home..urgh so tired.so i met izza at pasir ris interchange and she was late..(as always).den she said she was tired so i brought her to take a bus(359)to mirrah's house.wen we reached the busstop,we were supposed to walk backwards but i made izza walk towards loyang sec and made a big round to mirrah's house.den mirrah picked us up and brought us to her house.when i came in,i saw nurhan(mirrah's brother)and hadi playing their PSP.so i sat down at the sofa with them and we watched the sweet life of zac and cody.afterwitch was breaking fast time.mirrah cooked some noodles,chicken nuggets and banana fritters(goreng pisang).i cooked the HSM surprise which is an original fried pasta wif the combination of all the HSM cast favourite food.hadi said it was okay lah.but when we sat at the table to break fast,all of us were just staring and laughing at each other and we were damn silent..we started eating and it was time to pray.hadi prayed first,followed by izza and me.den after that we wathched princes diaries together but i was playing grand theft auto in hadi's PSP.den it was 9.30pm..but we didnt go home yet.we went into mirrah and nurhan's room and talked about people lah..den izza got stuck inside the "DRAIN"in between mirrah's bed and the wall.and we took pictures wich will be put up soon.dats all gtg bye2

i've always been the kind of guy
that hid my face
so afraid to tell the world
what i've got to say
but i have this dream
right inside of me
i'm gonna let it show
it's time to let you know

this is real
this is me
i'm exactly where i'm
supposed to be now
gonna let the light shine on me
now i've found who i am
there's no way to hold it in
no more hiding who i wanna be
this is me
well,dats a snippet of my latest fave song..so dats all goodbye

hei,im having difficulties..EOY'S r coming very stressed out..gtg chiao

hello,about a month more to utah.haiz,my heart is feeling guilty as the days come nearer.i was thinking of breaking fast with the lardasses but i dnt htink they would agree.haiz...todays sunday and tomorrow's school and drama..oh goodness,y cnt time fly faster,im really fatigued.oh ya btw,i lost some weight,yes woohoo,dad was happy that i got bronze award at the maths trail on friday so,he's buying me something,i duno wat.urgh..very sleepy,so i gtg to bed although its afternoon.btw..my room telephone is no longer available..sorry..well gtg...bye

48 days to hsm 3 ,79 days to utah,23 days to ras bdae.all this are practically marked out on my calendar already.urgh..so anywaes.tday was maths trail at the airport.i teamed up with eugene and izza.so at the time when our team wanted to go to terminal 2 from terminal 3,ADLI,FARID,zad,adam sayed they wanted our answers and they were in the skytrain at terminal 2 where we were.den izza went into the train and suddenly"doors closing".and she went to terminal 3 without us.hahaha.but at least our team won bronze..den bussed all the way home..

sorry but the link is spoiled...so,im removing it

hello,just came back from the movies.yup,me,hadi,ras,mirrah and addie went to watch wall-e today....they spent about $20 at the arcade just bcoz of a winnie the pool toy..hahahahaha..oh well thats all 4 now...more updates tmrw.for those of u who havent done your english hmwrk just follow the latest link that i have created.it leads to egenie

81 days to utah,28 days to hari raya,33 more days to eoy's,51 days to hsm3 and on the 21st of october is the release date of the hsm soundtrack..wooohoo.today for break fast,ate carrot cake and tmrw hanging out at the library with the Lardasses after afternoon prayers..okays gtg goodbye...

hei,people..for all those who are wondering when is hsm 3.i'll tell you.october 24th hahahaha.cant wait.in the meantime,this are the soundtracks of hsm3.only 3 songs have been launched so far
01.
Now Or Never
Performed by The High School Musical 3: Senior Year Cast
02.
Right Here Right Now
Performed by Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens
03.
I Want It All
Performed by Ashley Tisdale and Lucas Grabeel
04.
Can I Have This Dance
Performed by Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens
05.
Just Wanna Be With You
Performed by Lucas Grabeel, Olesya Rulin, Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens
06.
A Night To Remember
Performed by The High School Musical 3: Senior Year Cast
07.
The Boys Are Back
Performed by Zac Efron and Corbin Bleu
08.
Walk Away
Performed by Vanessa Hudgens
09.
Scream
Performed by Zac Efron
10.
Senior Year Spring Musical Medley
Performed by The High School Musical 3: Senior Year Cast
11.
We're All In This Together
Performed by The High School Musical 3: Senior Year Cast
12.
High School Musical
Performed by The High School Musical 3: Senior Year Cast
13.
Just Getting Started
Performed by ABC Reality Winner
14.
Last Chance
Performed by The High School Musical 3: Senior Year Cast
well if i were u,i would start looking for the lyrics of the songs mentioned above.u can go to youtube to check out the music video of now or never and i want it all.but music video for the others are not launched yet.feel free to go through the fansite and official website.adios..goodbye

prove it candy.transalate an english song from high school musical.and gilbert.i know that my fren with the bandage was struggling to walk but she said nvm.so stay out of this.that includes bothering me about brandon.u noe how i feel to be forgotten by brandon.no cheryl,ahmad.with cheryl,forget ahmad.u just keep out of my affairs.stop messing other people's lives.for 5 months we noe each other,its always my fault right???even cheryl says that it is fair for me to say this.i only called brandon a bastard bcoz he called izza bitch.and i wont remove the spanish part bcoz this is MY BLOG,MY LIFE.GET OFF IT.dont interfere. what is going on wif me and brandon is between me and him,i dont need a lawyer to fight the case.if u want me to be at fault badly,fine here it is.after this u wont have to hate me.LADIES AND GENTLEMENT I'M LEAVING FOR UTAH ON THE 23RD OF NOVEMBERim sure u will be laughing your heads out.espescially brandon..."ahmad's gone".oh and just to let u noe,i was NEVER your friend gilbert.NEVER.most of the class hates you.like 1/4.stop bothering my life jerk