well dis it..the moment..ive lost yet another loved one..yesterday at 10pm singapore time,i got a call from auntie iffah.she was crying on the phone and i asked her why..she answered me "please be patient ahmad,she's gone"i was hanging on the phone wondering who dis she refers to..and i found out soon after..kak lin..i cried and cried and cried..and i went to visit and i kept crying..even now as im typing,tears are brimming in my eyes..i could not believe the fact that she passed..on friday,she came over and we were talking about our typical teenager life and the next thing u noe on saturday,kak lin has left this world..i didnt sleep last nite coz the impact made me to remorseful..then at 9 this morning,i went to bukit batok to wish my final goodbyes to kak lin..and i looked at her sadly thinking of everything bad that i did to her..i just cant come to forgive myself..i said awful things to her..so awful that she was hurt..but she didnt care bcoz she knew i didnt mean it..so today,dad declared the year 2008,the saddest year for our family.in just a year,we lost 5 family members..and i hope no others will be taken away from me