helloo..gosh has my blog been dead???i think so..well not mucch happenned..for on ehting i forgot when i last blogged..so yeah just tell u wat happen today lah..or rather lets flashback yesterday..so yestrday was mnday..and we had contact time lah until 9..then malay was about our malay warriors..lah..then it was recess..ooh theres this "dont sit with other class people" policy.its lame lah and very exageratting..oh k..moving on..after that was..frgot..then after school helped an old friend..then yeah bussed home..blahblah..this mrning..wke up..went school and sat through lessons..got SS..but the teacher was boorring..b4 dat had malay...we did comprehension and all..then after SS was recess..then after dat english then POA then physics then dismissal..then went library to do things,,then got really pissed off coz somebdy still wants to play the whispering game and well yeah helped fiqah and atiqah wif SS and helped rasyid too then i did F&n and then we all went homes andd when i reach home,mum cooked boiled cockles or known to us malays as kerang..ate it with spicy soy sauce..nice gila sia..but spicy like very spicy and sharp on the tounge..i duno how to open the shell but i did in the end..cut my pointing finger with the shell..sad ritee???but worth the cut..coz turns out to be nice..hehheee..ok then now watching anugerah..later want to watch princess protection programme on youtube..well thets it fer now

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i tried my hands at editing this..comments can be typed into the tagboard..sorry if not nice..im waiting for mai's other pics..well ive got nothing better to blog about..woke up early,went to airport for lunch and..im here now..yeah..not much but a bore now ehk??ok heres a few dedications to some people who made my ordinary holidays extraordinary..
syah
thanks for agreeing to go watch night at the museum 2..and for following me to marina barrage...ure laughter never fails to make me smile and also the craziness we had on the bus on our way to the POA seminar

mai
thanks for listening in to my problems,my worries and all..for entertaining me and my crappy jokes

su
thanks for everything i said above

mira
thanks for making my cuzin much happier..thanks for of course always being there for me

mirrah
thanks for entertaining me and my crappy sms replies..and those wonderful advises

ras
thanks for listening to my problems and those nightcalls that i cant have now

diana & shehan
thanks for going out with me that day..had fun..u cheered me up lots

mai
ure my lil sis and nothing changes that..thanks a million for those smiles and craps..lets start it agaIn and yes i'll always be there for you

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recording of our SS project was done perfectly..except for certain distractions and whispering behind my back of all sort..i duno wats it is all about but..i can finally understand how it feels to be whispered at in the face..no explanations or offence to all those who might feel a current now..then had prayers followed by kkh appmnt..then after had dance lessons..haiz..i injured my right leg..anyway yeah,i think we could have done better in the recording..coz well two of us were busy trying to get into harmony one was helping us..one was waiting for her turn to sing,one was busy turning on the recorder while the other on the contrarary,was playing..and entertaining..haiz..not to mention nisa was a great distraction..so yeah..its best if the next few projects are not at my place..sorry..but yeah..ooh and jamie fox did not convert from a guy..she was close to guys..do ure research properly u noe who..do research properly..dats it..

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as per normal,mum agian takes the side of my cuzin..i woke up late..coz i was tired from the POA thingy and she say"u wat prince of this house ah,wake up late"when she talk to me,she scream but when its with my cuzin,wah speak to her so gently and its just fucking irritating..see,i knew it from the start..who the hell even cares wat happens to me..i cant wait till im 18..i wanna trace back my biological family members and live wif them,coz this family isnt worth staying for..i dont care if she took care of me for 15 years or watever,my biological mum gave birth to me..i really feel so confused..like i need another problem..i should just stay away from the world..coz its only me,against the whole world.time cant stop to wait for me to catch up it can only go faster and for the first time i just wished it would go at its fastest..i want all this to end..i want my biological parents to noe im not having a sweet life as i should have..and i want them to know that watever happens,theyre still my parents and that i still love them..even if theyre gone or anything..only tears and anger accompanny me in this world coz nobody cares..i should just walk away and dont look back..coz i know that if my hearts break,it'll hurt so bad.. coz wats done been done..3 more years till i become free of myself..i dont even want to do it..but i have too coz i have my rights of knowing the truth..ive been living in a lie for 15 years and i dont want it to hapen for another 3 years..if its possible i'll just go away coz it'll be much easier wouldnt it??why stay if ure so called closed ones dont care???theres really no point of staying,..mayb i should be like alia in istri untuk suamiku..act like im crazy then end up in hte mental hospital..it would be great..coz i dont see the need to lie life as it is coz its already as it is..well,dats it..its probably the last time im ever gonna post..coz im not me anymore

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hell-ooo..people..so today was fun..i woke up at um..7.30..showered..freshened up..then dressed and walked to interchange to meet miss toh,mai,atiqah,sharfiqah,syah su and yuni..but thankfully all of us were punctual although i was too early..yeah breakfast at mcdonalds and bused in number 10 to mountbatten CC..me,mai and syah sat at the back seats and were very noisy..we sang sang andsang till we reached the venue..then at the cc was very fun..first was the talk on money management by mr para..then after that was game briefing by d organizers..its called cashflow and its fun..theres two parts..all players start at the rat race level where we try to invest as much as we can..then after that when we are out of it..we choose a dream and carreer..our dream was to become a jetsetter and u noe wat our job was???janitor..ahhahaaa..yeah but overall ritee.i think dunman was the most spirited people there..yelah..3G people ritee..we like still can play our own games and all..its fun lah..we had a facilitator named kenny who is very nice..he help us alot ley..thanks kenny..we didnt win lah ..but it was a very inspirational experience..then at 4+ bused back to tampines,had dinner with peeps at food culture and we went our seperate ways..its great..it was fun and well yeah..ok i forgot to answer the phone when someone called..coz i was in the bus and fast asleep..fun ah..syah and her crap..oh ya..syah cant tell the diff between airplane and helicopter..we saw a helicopter fly past and she said"eh aeroplane" and when an airplane fly past,she say "eh,helicopter"..so it was fun overall the best outing amongst the classmates..ooh..i want our marina barrage outing pics..so dats all adios amigos..

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well today was supposed to be fun..but..things didnt turn out as palnned..shehan was late so we had lunch at 1.45pm..ooh btw..saw feeq..hahaha..not that it matters lah..but well....then at 2.15..we ended lunch but when we went to the spot where we were supposed to meet this someone..she wasnt there..so we searched high and low for like a few minutes and she effing had the cheek to call to say that she waited for 45 minutes and we werent there..so i passed the phone to diana but she already hung up..and that she is izza durra bte abdul rahman bajerai..he told her mum or maid or whoever that she was pissed or in malay mengamuk..i have more rights to be pissed wif her..and btw to every1 attending drama training its cancelled..du to H1N1...there i was kind enough to say it ok..i have tolerated enough..and im at my breaking point..so dontexpect to say im so sorry coz ive been saying sorry everytime ure mad at me..just stop it ok???go around sulking telling people bout who i really am but speak only off the truth..coz if u dare to even lie for abit,i'll make sure i spill your beans..like u said..u scratch my back i scratch ures..ok..so anywaes..we had fun although there was a problem..diana and shehan were so engrosed..oh btw..we watched ghost of girlfrens past..its good..an 8/10..it was just so romantic..no wait..very romantic..should go and watch it..adios!!!

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the hsm trilogyy has really helped me out in my life's experiences and this video im about to post has alot of the cast's gdbyes and all..im just crying when i watch it..its so emotional and amzing..maybe zac is rite..once a wildcat always a wildcat..well heres the final farewell to all those who love hsm..

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woots!!!ok so hannah montana is no longer showing in tampines and its sad..so tmrw,me,diana,shehan and izza will watch land of the lost.heard its funny and hopefully will have lots of fun..shoutout to diana and shehan:can we go pastamania for dessert???it ranges from $3-$5..got alot of nice desserts like chocolate mousse which is $3.90,strawberry bavarese which is $4.90 tiramisu which is $4.40..can we please go..oooh and i want to drink peach lychee italian soda which is $3.40..it'll be nice..can we please go????ooh..diana has high fever..get well fast..it'll be a record if you can cure in exactly 24 hours time..hahahaaa..and yeah thats that..currently bored at home..stuck to watching desperate houswives,top design,top chef,rachael ray show on sony entertainment telivision..theyre good..no more cartoons coz its now so boring..tmrw's supposed to be fun..lets pray for diana to be fully recovered..alahai kesian,sally is sick..hahahaha..eh shehan doesnt have a nickname..we shall decide on that one..i got two..kuburman/bangdut.hahahaa..my standars are off the chart..well now is a very good time to say this..IM BORED..hahhaaa..ok so not much else to say this but i just wonder why love...is so..ah well forget it..yeah so dats dat and i'll see you when i see you..bye wildcats

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haiz..yo!!!!ok im seriously bored but well my blog isnt dead..its always updated..hahahaa..yup..its well a few more days till im able to watch hannah montanna the movie with diana,shehan and izza..well at least its something to get my mind off the current family problems that im facing..still havent got $$$ oops..how sey???well its kinda mind boggling..i have to find a way..maybe working mtrw just to get extra cash..well dats dat for now..well yeah..i cant hold on somehow..i just feel like letting go but well i must stay strong ritee???ok wildcats..thats all fer now..i'll post when i post..byee!!!!

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a very glorious morining in tampines!!,well today supposed to be busy but i cancelled everything im supposed to have..u noe wat?i miss alot of people all ready..so anywaes..yesterday was fun.coz i slept at 1am.ras called at about 10.40pm and finally we talked about something fun..high school musical..hahahaha..yeah its so fun..we were singing and strolling down those songs..it was great..so ras is the third on my list that talked to me till the wee hours of the morning...first is shehan,followed by izza and now her..hahahaha..congrats..seriously want to watch hannah montana.haiz..life's like dat ritee???ok its such a glorious morning,im going to get my weekend's dosage of cartoons on okto..hahahhaa..15 and still watching cartoons..great ritee???hahahaa..ok i'll take my leave..godbye peeps

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hei!!well tday was a very action packed day..morning went to family court to settle somethings..then went home,went friday prayer and then to kkh..then ended early and had archery classes..tmrw's going to b even busier..starting woth family court then archery lessons,vocal classes,politician club meeting at marina..ooh..swimming classes..then got yoga..hahaha..loads of stuff..i got no more pictures to edit..so sorry..hmm..well im just trying to think of the good things in life.diana smsed me yesterday bout watching movies on tuesday but half of them all cant go..shehan watched it,mirrah's broke,ras cant..haiz..how diana??still want to go??i dont mind..im in need of watching hannah montana the movie..i want to watch..but looks like that dream aint coming true..sobs..haiz..life's like dat..im so sad..stomach's grumbling and so i need to go..ooh..just telling everyone out there if want go movie wif me on tuesday sms lah k??so sad..byeeee

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sometimes,i feel i dont mean anything
sometimes i just wish i knew of my past
i just want to know what i did wrong as a kid
maybe nisa is a shadow that overshadows me
but mum and dad are giving more attention to her than me
watever she asks from mum and dad,she gets
and when i ask for something as simple as my favourite food
i get scolded
i just want to get away.
maybe my biological parents thought i would have a great life
but honestly speaking,i dont.
i dont noe who will stand for me anymore
i dont noe who i am
what the future holds for me
coz every adult puts me down
everyone in my family included
i need a timeout
but i just dont noe how to survive
coz these feelings can only be expressed on a blog
and bcoz unfairness surrounds me
i want to know my past.
the family that gave me away
i want to know
coz knowledge of my past
would actually tell me how to behave in the future
seemingly nobody understand's the situation im feeling

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hellooo!!!ok just went back from the outing..enjoyed although i was screaming at the top of my lungs in the cinema..and held on to mirrah for dear life..i wont go into detail coz i duno..just dont feel like it lah..so b4 the mvie at about 12++.met ras and mirrah at swensens..eat and guess wat??the total that we ate was $57.90..lots rite???but of course we paid our shares..then went arcade..played this driving game thats similar to daytona..mirrah trashed me two times..at least won against ras.hahahah..then played these hunting game..wow!!all of us dont have the guts to kill the animals so we missed although mirrah headshotted a wolf..poor wolf..although it was just a game..had fun lah..really..well yeah the movie's worth the money..its called drag me to hell..really scary and ironic..should watch it although i wont be taking doubles these time..we went our own ways at about 5..ras and mirrah wanted to go library so much..ok..mirrah says she would update her blog tday.. duno lah..so to all those who think or thought that the movie is not worth going and if they still think thats its crap..u should just shut the hell up,grab ure family or friends who havent watch it and head down to the cinemas near you or u could go around complaining and grouching bout the show..coz we had the time of our life..from now on,any movie i watch i'll rate..although the movie was frightening i'll give it 6 on the scale of 10..wow..amazing..hsm was like 5 in a scale of ten..gosh!!!really..its a thrilling movie..a must watch movie..remember if scaredy cats like me can still dare watch it,so can you!all ritee..cheers..gdbye..

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okok..second post of d day!!!!hellooo readers..whoever that's reading out there,leave a tag so dat i noe there r people reading..coz i duno..its 3 months till this blog turns 3..there'll be a bonanza big ones..mayb take a stroll down old memory lane..all that in september..well i wont actually try to result in copying watever mirrah is doing coz technology prohibits me to do so..haizz..so i'll still result to typing coz its fun..and shows a person isnt really lazy..tmrw watching drag me to hell wif mirrah,ras and mayb izza..i didnt want to go coz i scared of dat show..but both of them oso the same so i dont mind going..we will be eating at swensens i think..well dats dat..im starting to miss people like diana,shehan,syah,hazmira,mirrah,ras,su,ayuni,mai,maisarah drama,um..a few more lah..if u dont c ure name then im sorry..i 4got bout u..i think..hmmm..who did i frget to mention???ohya..fiqah and atiqah..oooh and alhanis and and lots of others lah that i cant like recall..hmm..who else??oh..addie..long time nver talk to her..and loads of others..wait..let me slowly recall..almak seriously cant rmmeber..okok..so i'll c u peeps tmrw..hahahahaaa...byeeee!!!!

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been doing lots of thinking and well this song fits what im feeling so enjoy it...its weird lah how these songs actually bring out the message
lyrics to crazier:
i never gone with the wind
just let it flow,
let it take me where it wants to go
till u open the door,theres so much more
ive never seen it before
i was trying to fly
but i couldnt find wings
but u came along and you changed everything
you lift my feet off the ground,
spin me around
you make me crazier,crazier
feels like im falling and im,
im lost in your eyes
you make me crazier,crazier,crazier
i watched from a distance as you made life your own
every sky was your own kind of blue
and i wanted to know how that would feel
and you made it so real
you showed me something that i couldn't see
you opened my eyes and you made me believe
you lift my feet off the ground
you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like im falling
and i, i'm lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier
ohhhhh
Baby you showed me what living is for
i don't want to hide anymore
you lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like im falling
and i'm lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier
crazier crazier

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maybe ive forgiven too much
maybe ive been putting lots of pain away
maybe im a cheerful person like u c
but in truth im just not
almost my entire lifetime
is just filled with grieve and anger
that little shining star that used to shine down on my path,
just dissappeared
im trying to let go.i am
but letting go all those pain ive felt
simply feels like surrendering myself to my heart
and when my emotions get the better of me
im just vulnerabe
ive put my faith upon the wrong people
ive put my faith solely on myself
i no longer care bout wat other people say
coz it aint no deal
lots of scars are trying to be healed but they cant can they
or maybe the remedies actually lie before me
but only invisible to this eye
im unsure
im just so weak..i cant seem to find who exactly am i??

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well im actually lazy to blog but guess wat??my schedule for next week is all full..monday someone book me just now..dowan to say who lah..coz we never invite this one person lah..so yeah the next few days like dat lah i like very busy wif school work and all..so currently bored..but i duno lah..i feel so bored..tday in d mrning went school for project work..then went geog..it was hillarious..then go prayers then go kkh..then now at home..haiz..bored dats wat it is..

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yo!!!ok..today was fun!!!met mai and su at canteen and the the F&N students all bused to takashimaya at orchard..we alighted and heade for the cold storage there..was very crouded and got alot of things that weve never seen in regular supermarkets..borrowed syah's LG touchscreen phone(thanks syah)and then we all walked to paragon shopping centre where we went to the supermarket..there more weird things sey..got this cauliflower which had three differrent colours..blue,green and yellow..weird ritee??dat y lah..then after dat we were dismissed..so me,syah,su and mai decided to go plaza singapura to watch night at the museum 2 which was hillarious..enjoyablr alh..we were laughing all d way and syah was laughing the loudest...then after dat..thankfully there were no cheeses or nachos..hahahaha..then we went istana park and camwhored..then suddenly we were off to marina barrage..hahahaa..enjoyable lah really..d train ride home was just plain funny..syah got free aromatherapy..hehehehe..and when we were at the canteen,someone became blind..so this is wat happened..
su:auntie,two lemon tea
drink stall auntie:there(point to lemon tea bottles)
su:laughs in embarrasement
ahmad:paisey sia su..
so dats wat happenned..really wanna show u the pics we took but have to wait..once i get it i'lll post it ok???enjoyed today greatly..thanks peeps..ahhahahaaa..

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hi peeps..supposed to go out and watch movies today but was cancelled coz only me and syah can go..so like sian like dat rite if we go alone..wat would people actually think ritee???tnrw's F&N outing..so not looking forward to it..duno y lah..i just feel so suddenly angry and pissed off..i finally know what best friends are REALLY all about..su's blog has a very great guide to it and well thats the general idea..im not gonna go around labelling people argh but some people just change into some1 u dont even noe in a blink of an eye..and yet u keep wishing dat person would just be who he/she really is and not hide and put up another face ah..dats wat frens are..like u see on my profile,i treasure everyone..besties dont have to check if were ok everyday,we dont have to call or sms everyday..although we do need trust..coz normally..nobody would stop you from being who we really are so we should stop and stare at the mirror long enough to see the damage that would always be right behind us..bcoz we are humans..and we leave lots of damage behind us,yet at times we dont really realize that the damage is too severe.if today's post upsets anyone of u out there who thinks the post goes to you,then im sorry.and im sorry if im too straight forward..but since u love the game of straightforwardness,i'll use the same thing ok???cheers..

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yo!!!okok..so tday woke up like really freaking early to go school for our maths project..but have to wait for two princesses.first one is the princess of tampines by the name of princess hidayah and second was princess of genovia by the name of aishyah..so yeah the two arrived we started discussing blahblahblah..then go POA it was fun lah..oklah..can tahan and tolerate lah..then after that went all over the school just to find dear mr nernard for our class test and i got 34/50..cool rite??beat rasyid i heard..hahahaha..and of course beat some other people who are probably sulking rite now..hahahahha..kembang sia ahmad!!!okok..then after that the three of us who took the test all mcam blur2 like dat..one gila,one serious one kiasu..haizz...3gians..normal lah we like dat...ok then ate at mini mart..spilled coke on myself then walked syah to her busstop..we watching movie tmrw..hahahaha..fun giler gurantee..then i think on wednesday like dat we go singapore river after our F&N outing..duno lah..watever alh..ok byeeee

i somehow just keep watching all those olld memories fly by me.the happinness there was just overwhelning..remember when we went ehub to play daytona???how funny izza sounded on the phone??or how we break fast together and how everyone in 1F just loved to sing..like i said..i treasure everyone but let me remind dat someone out there that if ras and the others r ok,then wats ure issue???u want to say u dnt have issues??but y is it that ure face shows it all..i simply regret that i offered to help u..and i duno lah..maybe life's like dat..and so dats all i can blog about for now
~~surfing off~~

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wow..hellooo..ok dad's discussing with our family insurance agent..and turns out i got lots of insurances to cover me..yay me!!well its really lots..and mum and dad really gave me lots of coverage..its like a cage that protects me..well court was scary lah..but finally we bailed lah..didnt go for trial..and i still have those things in my possession..dats sat lah..oklah..weekends are boring!!!!anyone wants to go out???yeah????to you:im still sincere in my feelings for you but im not sure i can keep up with the pain im feeling..mayb its a new me..i want to change to become a better personi dont understand but heres life as it is!!ok..aishyah's blog always ends with hastalavista..so i'll end wif dis
~~~surfing off!!!~~~

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well???tuition soon after..so bored..gosh the holidays are really boring..classes-home and its an eerlasting cycle isnt it???well life as it is..

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yo!!!!turns out there wasnt any geography classes tday..so dearest mr bernard came in and so we did chemm..very fun..me nad mai can do all the questions..then ended at like 11.30..then had lunch at canteen then finnally bused home..starting to miss people ready..oh ya..b44i 4get happy friendship anniversary mirrah and ras..may you last long and hope that all ure dreams do come true..well dats dat lah..coz life's like dat..later have tuition in the evening so yeah..klah..have a nice day people!!

signing off

~~AHMAD~~

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above is a duet by kris allen and adam lambert..enjoy!!!

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helloo..took some quizzes on facebook and one quiz was about friendship and it says dat i have to sometimes weed out friends who are just not reliable enough..i duno wats becoming of me..mayb its true wat people say dat i treat friends like clothes.when i get sick,i buy new friends..but i want everyone here reading this to noe that i never gained any friends using $$$$. and i will never subdue to that method.friends are complicated and so are my feelings.friends revolve around me like the world revolves around the sun.friends would always be there for us if were facing problems be it emergency or not.friends would always be on your speed dial should anything happen.and friends should noe you inside out..not ure bdaes or favourite colour or anything but wat is it that makes him/her feel liked,adored,trusted,happy and all the positive emotions one can feel.in friendship,there are at least 4 essence that keeps that frienship alive.first,sincerity.u have to certainly be sincere in a friendship.secondly,honesty..the most important..do not lie to ure friends at any circumstance..if u think he/she has changed,tell them honestly in the face.dont hide behind and backstab them.thirdly is forgiveness..be easy..just forgive nay mistakes if not just cut the friendship off..last is the most important..commitment..how well u cna commit ureself to the friendship.honestly..this four essence are bearly obvius in most of my friendship and trust me..this is of course in reference with some people who may be reading this and smirking their heads off saying that i just contradicted myself.to that someone,i no longer care coz i know who you really are now.and just stop being jealous and denying it ok..i have a life so just stop trying to use me.i havent frogotten that inceident that happenned long,long time ago..k..now i sound like a therapist or something..well dats probably all....the second day of the june holiday mayhem edition for my bloggie adios amigos~~~~~~

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