as per normal,mum agian takes the side of my cuzin..i woke up late..coz i was tired from the POA thingy and she say"u wat prince of this house ah,wake up late"when she talk to me,she scream but when its with my cuzin,wah speak to her so gently and its just fucking irritating..see,i knew it from the start..who the hell even cares wat happens to me..i cant wait till im 18..i wanna trace back my biological family members and live wif them,coz this family isnt worth staying for..i dont care if she took care of me for 15 years or watever,my biological mum gave birth to me..i really feel so confused..like i need another problem..i should just stay away from the world..coz its only me,against the whole world.time cant stop to wait for me to catch up it can only go faster and for the first time i just wished it would go at its fastest..i want all this to end..i want my biological parents to noe im not having a sweet life as i should have..and i want them to know that watever happens,theyre still my parents and that i still love them..even if theyre gone or anything..only tears and anger accompanny me in this world coz nobody cares..i should just walk away and dont look back..coz i know that if my hearts break,it'll hurt so bad.. coz wats done been done..3 more years till i become free of myself..i dont even want to do it..but i have too coz i have my rights of knowing the truth..ive been living in a lie for 15 years and i dont want it to hapen for another 3 years..if its possible i'll just go away coz it'll be much easier wouldnt it??why stay if ure so called closed ones dont care???theres really no point of staying,..mayb i should be like alia in istri untuk suamiku..act like im crazy then end up in hte mental hospital..it would be great..coz i dont see the need to lie life as it is coz its already as it is..well,dats it..its probably the last time im ever gonna post..coz im not me anymore

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The name is Ahmad Asyraf Abdullah
I am a proud stagearts drama artistant
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I’m 16
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