yo!!everybody,leave me alone for a while..i need time alone.i noe most of oyu are like not even involved but just give me space ok??no more msning me even if im online,no more phonecalls coz i wont pick up..and lastly,dont ask this question"r u ok?"coz clearly seen,im not ok..so no questions ask,im now a time bomb(kinda)can explode soon..sorry to cuzzie,kak farah,mum,dad and aunt coz i blew my top at u guys..so soory kak farah,the performance this saturday will have to wait..im not in the mood rite now,to SOMEONE:please,dont label me as a betrayer,u guys r not my spare tires..u guys noe who u are..i noe wats being said behind me,so just wanna say if u have somehting against me,say it to my face..

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erhum..helloo..today and this month is called,be sarcastic to your ex-bestfriend month,apparrently SOMEONE thought that removing me from SOMEONE'S blog link will have any effect on me..honestly..not..im not at least a single cent concern so please just dont ask me to pack my bags and leave coz ure occupying my life,not me occupying your life.so just back off..and for those who are so very concerned abput us,u guys can try as hard as u can to reunite us,but as far as i noe,she is too unwilling and anyway u guys would just say that im treating u guys like a spare tire..im not ok???ive always stuck by a person no matter up or down and please to that plant of a person,just watch wat u say behind my back coz my 3Gians were there when u told krisha watever u said..i helped u today and this is wat i get..u can now just remove me fromso dats dat ure life and contacts coz i wont even bother to pick up ure phone call.. so dats dat..everyone,out!!!!!!

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to mirrah,our friendship ends here..thanks fer all those sweet times together and ure jokes and all..u mean alot to me,but i just cant bear to see us not talking,and i noe it will just repeat itself all over..my judgement and ure sarcasm cant fit..so dats gdbyee

moving on to my now very empty life,i told u wat ritee???people i pray for NEVER appreciate me,and well im used to it..but they'll always be in my prayers..so dats dat..so gdbyeee

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nothing much today,just finished praying..i read this book called the shack,that reflects life with god..its a really great story that makes you think and say"yes there is such a thing as god"..u shud read it..my day today was just fine,so no elaboration shall be done..coz its very boring to report everything in school wat ritee???yes im still praying fer everyone's happinness..but im thinking..people i pray for,dont appreciate me and people i dont pray for come very close to me..god has shown me finally the path of faith coz i see wat i need to do now,i noe dat if i have nobody left,god would always be there to comfort me and make me strong,yet ive always doubted god's decision and i regret now..explains why i cry every night in my prayers begging to god to make me really strong..but it hasnt happenned yet..but i'll keep praying,even if the person hates me,even if the person is my enemy,i'll pray for them..been sleeping late this whole week,coz im praying and reading the quran till the wee hours of the morning..i hope i can finally find out who i really am in life..

ps.(no updates on hydir-idris.com,coz havent check the website yet)

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hei..had nightclasses just now..was very fun..then after dat spent time wif su at the swing..coz we just felt..i duno..left out??congrats hydir-idris.com,50 registered members mark reached..dats it..tmrw SS,geog and english paper..dats dat..byee

been feeling lost
cnt find the words to say
rather spend all my itme
stuck in yesterday

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as per normal,firstly..congrats agin to hydir-idris.com,now and currently 57 members strong..baik per!!!great job fieqah and zul..kk..moving on,just now F&N practical//finished 5 dishes but now,im so tired..my wrist is hurting from whisking alot,my backbone from bending over fer two hours and my feet fer standing for two hours..b4 i fget,happy bdae hazmira bte amin..alamak,havent do english..oh dear..now wat??okok..firstly,i need a nickname..so i need ure help..we have aishyah lautner,su kiwi & mira archuleta,so wat about me??ahmad idris??ehk..cannot lah..so waat???help me decide lah..gif me suggestions can???well dats dat,im gonna find my thumbdrive..its missing..hiz..okok..byeee

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yo!!!yes ah..hydir-idris.com is now 48 members strong..baik per..sorry ehk if got alot of updates bout hydir..coz its just so great to be able to live at the doorstep of a teen star..its really an honour..so basically studied at library just now..tmrw is F&N practical..urgh..scared sia..some more fasting nvm"sesungguhnya aku berpuasa"then thats dat now..so please visit hydir- idris.com which is just a link away//dats dat..gdbyee!!!!

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yo people!!!!how r u all??im sure its great..gosh,lucky tday no need send lauk at someone's house..haiz..if not paiseh sia..so tday is the 3rd day of puasa..and still counting..tmrw is NRIC registration..haiz..ehehk,i wanna ask u all..have i like changed???attitude wise??amazingly today b4 i blogged,i made sure i revised and read the quraan b4 blogging..prayed again and all and sitll my prayers never change,im still asking fer help,still hoping for that special someone and still hoping that all my dreams would come true..now chatting with fans from hydir-idris.com..i upgrade into regular users ready..baik or wat???nvm..keep chatting lor..making new friends,talking bout our idol,just makes me cheer up lots..i look frward to chatting wif them everyday,getting to noe more people..its been really awesome..so now i thank hydir and hydir-idris.com fer really making me happy and i look frward to every chat time we have together

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helloo..3 hours++ till its time to break fast..cant wait..im really hungry..tday no tmuch happenned..10 am-1pm as per normal have vocal lessons,then went home..used coputer,registered at hydir-idris.com as a fan,then at 4+ went down to take porridge..and im here..so today,i shall convey a message from hydir-idris.com's admin...to all hydir idris fans,join us and register at www.hydir-idris.com enter and then click register..and ure an official fan..so do join us.dats dat and..im bored..so dats dat..so i'll update again at nite..ps.follow the link to register..its down there..

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good evening,fellow readers and those who have chosen to stick to this blog..fer once,i dowan to like really blog i duno why..so tday was the first day of fasting month..omg was i like so fatigued..ok so basically woke up at like 5am to eat..then went to sleep again and woke up fer mendaki..reached mendaki,the whole class today was like real tired..during our break right after english class,all of us slept..we woke up when our maths teacher miss diana enquired why we were all so tired..not to mention terawih prayers last nite..i prayed like i never prayed b4 coz after prayers i prayed to god and duno y started crying when i recited"oh god,the one and only,please protect me and my friends and family from any negative things."then after which was "oh god,please show me who my biological parents are and protect them from all negative things"..lastly was this and it may sound ridiculous but well.."oh god,please let hydir idris be succesful in life and please give him faith and willingness to sing.please do not let him give up on himself'and i guess i was just sincere in praying like that..mum and dad were shocked,yeah sure i prayed,but never before have i cried praying..then after mendaki went fer vocal lessons..ive done it,i have finally reahed the highest pitch i can..then broke fast at aunt julia's place in woodlands..we were discussing about inviting the idris family fer hari raya gathering and we just said u noe how my lil czzie would faint when she meets him and how i would just shut up all the time..and yes..dats it..i wanna go sleep..so byeee

every nite,i pray fer ure well being
and hope that one day u'll love me

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im so upset..fer an hour,i searched the internet fer hydir idris's cover version of ada untukmu but i cant bloody find it..except i found it but have to pay to download...sheesh and i need a new earpiece..i'll be so glad if someone said "ahmad,i found the song ure looking for,the mp3 version"i'll just thank that person lots man..my ipods currently not in use reason being i dnt have a earpiece..will pester dad to buy one fer me but surely cant get and i want a pocket file..then i can make my own coverpage..omg..tmrw is actually fasting day..im suppossed to pray terawih now but i forgot how to do it..so i need to wait till nite..so today had school as per normal..was very fun??played floorball in PE..im a good keeper..than had english..the last debate was between me and syah..my group won the debate and ,me and syah won the title of best speaker..we rebutted each other like shit lah..but it was fun..i cant wait till it happens again..kk then after school went study at macs wif mira,su,mai..then now im home..haiz..im seriously pissed lah..cant donload or listen to my ipod coz no earpiece..haiz.. i'll end it with this
aku akan sayang dirimu biarpun nafasku sampai terhenti

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helloo..currently updating my facebook..plus cooking..and renovating my attitude and personality fer the benefit of others..so anywaes..tday after school had chem..was oklah..then after that we went lunch and study under the block..finally went home wif mira and im here listening to songs..btw..i have to do F&N but no time coz i got ngaji soon..so i'll be doing it at like 10.30pm..dats dat..well byee..i wish i could sing and be happy again but its impossible isnt it???

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good evening..hehhe..just got home form chemistry nite class..it was fantastic lah..basically b4 dat,lessons as per normal..very enjoyable..then after school teman yuni fer her first library duty..stayed back till like 5++ then mai and me went dinner at mr prata..chit chat,walked back to school,met wendy..we all go class..nobody,so walked towards atrium then saw them in one of the air-conditioned classroom..started lessons and all..then time to go home..sent mai home then after that walked to aunt leha's block to solat..then after that,bussed home..im here now..dats dat..i noe people are likely to trust me..and i dont care but i just feel so abandoned..so heres today's quote

friendship is like glass,it is fragile but strong,but once broken,impossible to fix back

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yo peeps..firstly..im sorry benny..i wasnt the one who reported you....idk who did it..but seriously im sick of helping the school..i never get anyting oso wat ritee???chill k??Im sorry..but u could have been nicer..i dowan to coz trouble between my classmates so i closed one eye k??ok so today was like weird lah..told mr lim i needed maths extra lessons..so he agreed to give extra coachings on friday or next monday..today after school had chit chat with lee sheen..thanks fer cheering me up..apprreciated it lots..and to benny..again im sorry...although u confronted me in front of the basketball court,i know ure angry and i dnt mind coz all this while ive been ill treating you..but i just wanna say dont blame if theres no evidence and i really dont know who reported you ok??..so tday went home at 5++..then reached home,terserempak wif somebody..haiya and this time he said hi but i give him cold shoulder coz not in mood..now i regret it sia..ah well..been practicing lots and lots..yes maii..i wanna join anugerah..if can make it ah..lee sheen agrees that nobody has rights to stop me from dreaming,be it dreaming of bcoming next president wat so ever..so yeah quote fer today

true friends stick through thick and thin
-unknown

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helloo people..its night time..yeap..im charging my ipod so yeah..uncles came over and i had a sore throat from all the vocal exercises im doing..haiz i noe common testa are coming up so its kinda a rush..y??i have 1 more singing to do..and this may be my only chance to qualify for anugerah 2011..yups..i wanna join but i duno if i have the talent and besides i'll be taking O's..so i duno..but wont hurt to try rite??My family all hinted that i'll be going fer anugerah..they keep asking and i just smile..then mum had to spill the beans by saying i wanna be like hydir..like not..i want my own sense of originality..i dowan copy people style.which is why abang wan my one and only cuzzie is helping me out..he's a vocalist..so yeah..one more performance..to get ready which is....during hari raya..my family booked concorde hotel ballroom..i have to sing..and besides,abang iryadie's wedding coming soon so i really want to sing..and obviously i dont have a good voice do i??wat to do,wat to do??nvm..education first..well dats dat..i wanna go sleep in my air conditioned room..and sing one last song b4 sleeping..so yeha..if it rains tmrw,u noe y..gdbyeee and gdnitee

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10 minutes till hydir performs..haiz and im at home..haiz...nvm lah..next time.according to some people i talked to,i need to change..change,change,change..hm..how do i wanna change,..izza says drop the anger and of course give in to people..lets stop and think for a few seconds..give in??haiz..go ask people in 3G how much ive been giving in for drama..u ask maisarah..during our SM times,how i went the extra mile to make everything perfect..how i got myself sick..and btw mirrah..please just tell me straight to the face if you have issues with me coz its just crap and fucking shit the way ure sarcasm works..u guys made me choose..ive chosen well wats losing one friend,compared to earning 39 others..u can ask how i dowan to go drama ever coz of ure fucking lil attitude..so please just step back long enough to see the damage that will always be behind you..and dont drag others into it..i noe u guys hate it and all..but y expect me to change when you yourself should change..oops..wait frget liao..i dnt mean anything to you..i 4got..

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back from vocal lessons..it was like quite fun lah..ok so tday..we had to sing send it on..abang wan found out that most of us knew the song,so we tried..i took joe jonas's part and was quite..pitchy??haha..duno lah..and..tday not going to watch hydir's performance..sorry hydir..if u r reading this in which i noe its very impossible coz u dnt noe my url only if u of course read my facebook profile..im really sorry..but truly ure one of my greatest idol that has opened up my interest in the malay ,music industry..so yeah..jiayou..oh btw..mum has this crazy idea of sending the idris family a hari raya card after fasting month which starts next week..gosh..she actually wants to invite them over..this is freaky..well dats that..im going jogging later..hahaha..and tmrw's school..hurry up and open school up//y???coz im bored at home..im really upset i cant go to watch his performance..haiyo..nvm lah..hope theres next time...notice something???almost 400 posts and blog anniversary coming in just a months time..which is around hari raya???i aspire to complete fasting this year so i can lose lots of weight,buy new clothes and look great..dad says if i lose weight,he'll buy me a laptop..for my hari raya money and savings during fasting month,i want to use it to by a digital camera and an old fashioned HP..then the rest bank in..then after that..i duno..by anew shirt like hydir's??with black vest but thats only if i do slim down..i will..i want to..thats it..byeee!!!

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theres this song by justin bieber..its called one time..its i believe an R&B song..but its real nice..i try to find the song with lyrics to put it here..oh wait i think i found it..oh just now went for vocal lessons at woodlands..thanks uncle wan for helping me find my pitch.. yup ive finally improved..yupps..tmrw mum agreed to bring me watch hydir tmrw..yay!!!!!
enjoy the song

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hellooo...i guess most of you guys enjoyed the music video of send it on..yup..its nice..yes shehan coz miley is inside..credits to syah for stumbling upon it first..then telling me to download..ok..so tmrw is hydir's performance at singapore expo hall 5 from 5pm onwards..fans,do come and support..it will be great..sadly im unable to make it..haiz..yups..y u ask???coz im sick..went to doctor this morning to check on my stomach..see it happens every time im sad,worried and angry..that time when i screamed at mira during atiqah's bdae party,it just hurt..then yesterday at the canteen..it hurts so much it made me cry..plus everytime i cry it hurts..its somewhere between the stomach and kidneys..and mai is just so worried that i dont check it..so the results are in..i noe wats happenneing to me..im under alot of stress,or what the doctor called as emotional distress..so it happens..plus,ive been cutting down on my food intake so it feels shocked..coz i cut down too much at one time..plus,mum bought me fruity lite by huiji to help me slim down..haiz..its like fruit juice u noe..nice..plus im exercising now..every saturday,sundays nad public holidays..i noe not enough lah..but well..next weeks fasting month so i hope to lose more pounds..then maintain during hari raya..then until end of year..hope can lah..okok..dats it..byeee

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since apparently i think i cant blog tomorrow..so anywaes..happy advanced 15th birthday my one and only nur hida ayuni bte daim..may our bash just now made u happy..hahaha..so yeah dats settled.ive finally seen the truth..and this poem is dedicated to all who are my friends or "friends" and specially my besties and dearest 3g
you are the lights that lead my path
you are the stars that decorate my sky
youre the only things that keeps me driving on
syah,mira,su,mai,yuni,maya..
u guys have been there for me each and everytime i fall.
u guys are always there to put that cheerfulness back in me
u guys tought me wat life truly is
and i thank you
bcoz now,i can tell reality and fantasy
i can finally see the big picture
diana,shehan,ras,mirrah,izza
thanks for everything..
u guys have been my listening ear even though
i noe now wat u really think of me..(not applicable to shehan,diana&ras)
i hope our fun memories were not simply fantasy
thanks everyone..enjoy the vid

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congrats to sarah aqilah...although i dont like you but well a job well done..ok so dats it..nothing to blog about..my ipod is spoilt..urgh!!!!nvm..i'll send it fer repairs tmrw..dats it

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its random,but i want my besties in drama club to read this..

a true leader is one who serves the club than lead
a true leader will never change no matter what status he/she holds
a true leader would never say"im the leader here"
a true leader will understand how others feel
to my friends in the committee
i beseech you to come back as to who u really are
dont change simply bcoz of power and position
make a change in our club
dont throw us down the drain and choose to stay inactive
you have to get back the support of those who are nt interested
you have to coz its your responsibility
ure elected fairly
ure thrusted this responsibility
use it well
dont turn into a power hungry monster
im not trying to question your authority
im just giving my opinion as a friend
honestly,speaking to you guys is like speaking to the wall
just coz i gave up on us,doesnt mean i dnt have the rights to know wats happening
im sick of clues.
im sick of all our convos
i just want us to stand up and make a difference in the world
coz now,i dont see it happenning
now that thats out of my heart..i feel so relieved..glad..i know ive done wrong to everyone close to me..including my besties in 3g..i noe im just not needed so give me some space..let my past and wrongdoings be forgotten..forgive me sincerely..and never look down on Normal academic people.we are very capable of our own future..all those "setakat budak G"its stopped and i want it that way..ive changed now,i know wats life all about..i noe who can really be my friends in times of need..

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yo!!!guess who's back..me!!!haha lol..wedding was just very grand.kak farah said i rocked the stage..yeah..ok so basically sang kepadanya then after that a duet with kak farah- my heart..that was saturday..lots of guests and when i was up there,it just felt weird but i was very comfortable..aunt dahlia said it was exactly how you-know-who would have sung the song..very fun that i think the next wedding at australia at the end of the year,i wanna sing again..kak farah says my voice sounds nicer in malay???really??hahhaa..i duno lah..thyen got this one makcik say i should join anygerah..lolz..dowan lah..education first..sunday went to genting..i got pickpocketed there..my HP was stolen..yup with sim card sia..walao..so now i got no hphone..haiz..sad life..then monday which is tday,took air asia back to singapore..here i am now..had fun!!!!lots of it..im jetlagged,hungry and cranky so dats all..byeee

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gosh..im nervous..only a few more hours till kak farah's wedding..which is tmrw..im invited to sing the song kepadanya which is originally sung by hady and taufik and of course sung by ures truly hydir during the night he got eliminated.well yeah the thing is,its supposed to be a duet but im doing it alone with farouk playing the acoustic guitar..im like so nervous..duh..very large scale wedding leh..dad said we'll be going genting..lolz..so boring..i want to go cameron highlands..why??very nice view..haiz..dats it..just now was NDP celebrations..i was at the head of the class but when it came to singing song session,i went to the back wif dayah,yun,mai and artiqah..izza decided to join soon after..krisha too..trust me we 3Gians were like singing at the top of our lungs..and well the others were quite like booring..y??people,its the nation's bdae,celebrate it with grace and happinnes..sheesh..then we went back clas and did this nice collage at our class board..woohoo..then went ehub to watch UP..it was very funny sia..i give it 5 thumbs up..then went pasir ris park..had fun but yun,su,mai & fad left early..me,mira and syah did drawing on the sand,cmwhored made the dissepearing act video and so on..then we went white sands to read books at the library..came across a singlish dictionary..out of all the words they can put in they put in the word,korek pantat..i was laughing my heads off liao..kk..so tonite leaving at 10..haiz..haiz..i will miss everyone..and miss another national day..haiz..thats it fer now..byeeee

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yo..not much updates..hydir eliminated..oh gosh..bloody hell!!!dtas it for now,,nothin much happenned this few days..shall end it with this..

i throw all of ure stuff away
then i cleared you out of my head
i tore you out of my heart
and ignored all ure messages
i tell eveyone we got through
coz im so much better without you

HYDIR PLEASE AGREE TO GO OUT WITH US THIS FRIDAY!!!

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well today another hydir encounter in the lift..heres an extract of our convo
lift stops at 4th floor,hydir and neighbours walk in
hydir:eh hi,how are you??
me:fine(akward smile)
hydir:arent u dat guy from tv??the interview
me:yeah.
hydir::ohk..exercise yeah?its good
neighbour:yeah very sihat ritee??(laughs)
hydir:tak baik sey
me:yeah..dont be like alif after u win k??
hydir:u noe who i am???
me:oh no,i dont..wait..ure hydir ritee??(sarcastically)
lift reaches first floor
me:bye
hydir:wanna join us for soccer??
me:no thanks,i got errands to run
hydir:ok
hahaa..kekek or wat..my first conflict with a star..haiyah..teeneager stars this days..

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ok..today is the first day of august!!!!meaning that national day is coming soon..muahaha..nothing much happenned today..had mendaki in the morning and well nadia tamrin from st hildas was practically like crazy ah..she broke her left wrist again..like ever since our mercu days ah,every year,gurantee break a limb one leh..haiyo dat gurl ah..then nadia from telok kurau was as equally smart as i was today reason being she didnt know how to do a maths question when i did..aqilah from telok kurau was weird..but well she's a fun person to talk too..not to mention she becomes crazy all over..next week no mendaki..oh man..missing them ready..for a while there i was all smiles today..how i wish it could happen everyday..then usual bussed home..i duno y reached home went to pray zohor and slept all the way till 4.30 after which prayed asar and went out to sengkang to go get my ipod cable that i left..then went home and im here now..later at night,mum,dad and aunt are going out..so im alone...gosh bored..ok..labels change every month so lets say now is sweet month august??OR SHOULD IT BE august invasion..hmmyup..sweet month august sounds very i duno..refreshing>>hahaa..ok..byeee

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