last day of 2009..from 11am to 2pm,treated mirrah and nurhan to K-box..it was hell lotsa fun..we kept singing and singing and singing..school starting in a few days time..hmm..books,check..school bag,check..wait..school reopens monday ritee???oh dear i dont have the white uniform ..it doesnt fit me anymore..how????..and mum is so being so nagging right now..annoying sia..its new year's eve,chill lah..things can never change..k..gtg and check nad print timetable..then i dont know what to do..dangs..byeee

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Thursday, December 31, 2009 | 4:15 PM


Singapore Idol Mania
3 Singles of Singapore idol,My 3 favourite idols singing them





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Wednesday, December 30, 2009 | 4:26 PM


Promoted,its like being touched by an angel
I'm PROMOTED!!!!!!!!!!!








A world had just gone by,
Always darkened Skies,
there was no reason to try,
Never could fly.
I'm tired of searching,
I'm wondering why,
it's not really all that much fun,
Reaching out for stars

Time to reach out,
Time to be who I am,
Finally I believe my dreams will unfold,
It's like being touched by an angel,
A brand new beginning,
It's amazing,
This is a moment I will remember.
Finally,
I can feel heaven on earth,
It's like being touched by an angel,
My world is changing,
I'm living out loud,
Feels like I'd been touched by an angel,
Above.

I'd waited for so long,
For this day to arrive,
My world seems a different place,
I'm hoping I can fly.
Time to reach out,
Time to be who I am,
Finally I believe my dreams will unfold,
It's like being touched by an angel,
A brand new beginning,
It's amazing,
This is a moment I will remember.
Finally, I can feel heaven on earth,
It's like being touched by an angel,
My world is changing,
I'm living out loud,
Feels like I'd been touched by an angel,
Above.

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| 12:01 PM


Breaking News
According to mum,
she got a call saying im retained
yeah its true,the news ripped out my heart and happiness
i just have one thing to say
to all those who have been promoted,congrats,work hard dont end up like me
to those who want to laugh at me,who want to mock me,
say all you want,but please dont tease my friends and family
i dont deserve sympathy
but if this news is true as mum says it,
then i vow never to step into the gates of Dunman
its fer the good of me and my friends
i dont want people to suffer coz of me

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Tuesday, December 29, 2009 | 8:06 PM


HUHU!!!a balance in life is critical.
All alone in this corner of the earth,
i sit and watch everything pass before my eyes
ive witnesed the destruction of a very strong Friendship
ive witnessed the process of falling in love
ive come to know how humans think
and how we treat each other.
ive felt happiness & sorrow
ive felt heartaches & hatred
ive blown my top repeatedly.
yet i know deep down that this innocent child is somewhere inside
ive always thought that he's gone forever
but im wrong,
no matter who i become or change to,
theres still that little boy inside
ive been forgiven
ive been rejected the chance to forgive
but people are differetn in their own ways
recent events
have thught me who really are my friends
i know,and ive embraced the fact that i have to be myself
its easy to say"i need to change"
but its hard to really do it
i cnt expect people to guide me through my life
i want to be independent
i dont want to boast bout already being everywhere in the world
i dont wanna tell people i visited paris at the age of 4
i dont want people to know of my hurtful past.
whats past is past,ive opened a new chapter
a chapter that would have recorded what ever happened recently
Mai,dearest godsister,thanks fer all the comforting words that u have siad throughout my crisis
Syasya,thanks fer being crappy all the time,it makes my day lots
Liyana,i owe you lots coz u understand my situation
Mirrah,fer always being there supporting me no matter what happenned in the past
Ras,for entertaining my nonsense on the phone during our nightly calls
Su,for really letting me cool of and change
Aishyah,for being patient no matter how silly or bad behaved i am
Mira,for cheering me up whenever i was down
Brandon,for understanding how i feel & fer always helping me out in times of need
3g 2009,for wanting me to be promoted to sec 4
and to everybody whom ive missed out,thanks fer showing and lending me the support i need

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| 8:32 AM


Singapore Idol 2009
Sezairi has been crowned our 3rd Singapore Idol,and i thought it was a good omen..met ras in the morning and went to school..like nervously to take my results..and the verdict is: ..................POSTPONED TO 30TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WTH????next thing you know,postponed again to the 1st or to the 2nd like wth???waste my bus fare to travel to school..i dnt feel like going on the 30th coz apparently i think they'll postpone..how am i supposed toenjoy my holidays man??wth!!!!!!!!!!im so mad..on the brighter side,Sezairi won..and i got an outing with liyana,mai,ras & mirrah just now..so yay!!!but it seems to be another one sleepless night or two..sheesh..pissed offf!!!!!ok i need to chill ritee???i cant..huhu..argh.....

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Monday, December 28, 2009 | 5:44 PM


Justin Bieber Rocks..

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Sunday, December 27, 2009 | 12:00 PM


Exciting Sunday
argh!!!hahaha..yesterday went liyana dad's kenduri arwah,read tahlil than ate nasi sambal goreng..yummyyy!!!!i sat next to syasya and both of us were super noisy when we eat..hehehe..kakak was like,sya,shut up..hahaha..then right she smuggle jelly out sia..tak tau malu..bahaha..then we went back to chai chee,called mum asked if i could follow mai jlan2 walk aroynd singapore,st first cna but then dad asked me to go home..pffft..but had fun..wooohoooo!!!!today,woke up real early went jogging (: actualy more like strolling..hehs..then now,preparing to go to cik zilah's wedding event..so yay,cant wait..and tonight is the crowning of our 3rd Singpaore Idol..go Sezairi!!!yeah..tmr is results fer retest..m getting shivers but promoted or not,im collecting my reserved books tmrw..yeah and i hope they dont postpone it again if not my blood go upstairs and i have to fret over such schallumnic things....woohoo..huhu..ok its been a nice week..but still my wish is still valid:Like me for who i am,not who you expect me to be

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| 11:37 AM


take me for who i am,not for who you expect me to be.

nice quote up there???gave jemputans fer today a miss coz i dont have the mood to attend..but mum says tmrw's jemputans at cik zilah's house must go,why??coz according to her,Mr Hydir Idris is related to cik zilah so he might sing tmrw,crap lah mummy..but i duno i dont feel like going,i dont feel like watching Singapore idol,i dont feel like doing anything,just me,myself & I alone at home,with the TV..tuesday outing with syah & su,havent confirm yet but were watching avatar 3D,tickets are $11(woah,killer price)wats up wif me?i dont know ive been telling everybody im busy but im not,im at home slumping around,sleeping,eating,choreographing,singing..it sucks to feel so lost..i dont get it,why people always rake up the past,and act like theyre not themselves.have you met any religiously extremist people???i have and i dont intend to be mean but these group of people are very unforgiving..they treat every mistake as a sin.no matter how small or large..mayb i need a guy's day out with Aide,Hakim & Luqman but i dont feel like it..im too poofed out and i feel like an ultimate shcallum(Pandorian for sumtin,aint gonna tell you)..i jsut need everybody to know,that quote is the thing in my mind now.so u know what i want now.

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Saturday, December 26, 2009 | 9:26 AM


One Time(My Heart Edition)
Ladies & Gentleman,the one and only,
Justin Bieber with One Time-My Heart Edition..enjoy aites??


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Friday, December 25, 2009 | 9:17 PM


Gone Too Soon
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps
'Til I'm full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
I hope you know,I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you,like a child misses their blanket
But I've gotta get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big boy now
And big boys don't cry

i've moved on,lost with no direction
all confused and scared,yup we've got some straightening out to do

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| 11:06 AM


Maybe you'll understand some day..

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Thursday, December 24, 2009 | 2:38 PM


Its been a sad night
yeah,condolences to liyana for losing her dad,visited her just now then bapak sent me to the interchange..then went home,watched zoom korea..dad's friend came..his son has an Audi Q7 so i decided to go for a ride..it was awesomenesss...oh b4 dat went to watch Avatar with Mirrah and Nurhan..we now know a new language,Na'vi,the official language of Pandora..and were gonna use it to tell secrets..haahha..no one will understand..im really annoyed with france,dont ask me why..Louvre Museum,been there done that but i wanna go again..oh yeah,Park Royale hotel's halal clam chowder and french bougette..yummy..miss France..ok..thats it,Au Revoir..ok stop it..byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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Wednesday, December 23, 2009 | 10:05 PM


you might not forgive me,
i might never be your friend,
i may have been used by you.
i may have been hurt bcoz of you,
but happy 15th Birthday,old friend
coz i might not be able to forgive and forget
but ure birth is definetely what others want to celebrate
happy birthday,Maisarah Edner

| 11:16 AM


OMG,5 Days now
yeah,i have to wait 5 more days fer retest results,coz the school postponed it due to the dumb Sec one orientation and people who havent take their retest,ass holes..the sec ones better be good,or i'll torture every single sec 1 member of drama next year..curses..like i went to school at 8am and then they say oh,postponed,might never know on the 28th when i go to collect,they say oh,postponed to 31st..wat kind of admin does our school have??goshg..i need to watch a mobie to destress,anybody free??oh forget it,people r busy i forgot,nvm i'll go myself,Avatar here i come

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| 11:05 AM


One movie i wanna catch next year,release date:2nd April 2010


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Tuesday, December 22, 2009 | 8:15 PM


Paisey sia!!!
i woke up early fer nothing,retest results are tmrw,the 23rd but anywaes still went to school to accompany Ras,and ive reserved my textbooks so hopefully i do get promoted its so freaky..so after accompanying ras,we went mr prata to eat then we went fer a drink at bubble tea..then we taked and talked and talked,and we sang and sang and sang,then we go home..reached home ready help mum send wedding invitation to babysitter's place at bedok,no not my wedding,my cuzin's wedding lah..so yeah,a lot of people were asking bout my results but i duno yet,its tmrw,and im going to school alone..sad ritee??until i get my results,i cant enjoy the hols so please hopefully i pass..so heres the thing,if i pass,i will put it up here,if i fail,i wont mention it at all,so u people must be smart enuf to read it kays??alritees..byweee

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| 6:16 PM


Life as it is
I'm Different Now
its shocking at how much ive changed
how much ive understood life
how much ive learnt to appreciate
Looking back,so many memories
have you ever wondered what life is about?







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Monday, December 21, 2009 | 3:22 PM


This is What Dreams Are Made Of??Reality Check
Ever heard of when people get so excited that they did sumting new in life that they go:this is what dreams are made of??i think its major crap.i guess people only say that to make the other party pleased with whatever theyve provided fer the other person and its as good as lying.some people dont want you to lie but just say the truth out loud,but at times,when u speak the truth,they go hysterical and crazy so wouldnt it be better if u didnt speak the truth?Wouldnt it be better if you didnt have to keep secrets?when were all frank and honest with each other??why is that so difficult fer human beings?y must we keep secrets??y cant we just be proud of ourselves and speak reality instead of plunging the other party into eternal denial??yeah,i know i dont sound like Ahmad anymore but maybe its a new me..i guess im getting really self conscious about things..i duno,recent events have sort of tought me a lesson on life,the hard & harsh way of course.ive been practically too soft,bending to everyone's expectations and ive never stopped fer one second to fulfil what i want,its always about others..so wat up man??like ok im not cool as a typical guy,i dont smoke i dont pick out whatever but hey?does that make me not man enough?does going against the status quo make u look like an alien??people expect to much from me..like "oh,uve gotta be nice and polite"or "u have to understand me,im trying hard"at the end of the day,i would understand people more than i understand myself and it just bugs me now..yeah,after being a twilight saga junkie,mum says ive been very mature with my thinking and i know when people read this,they'll go like..right..mature..but im trying hard,bcoz i want to be mature,not childish like crying at the signs of stress,crying when i fight with people,feeling so hopeless and lost??i want to be stronger to better manage myself,not to entertain people who want me to be loyal to them,not to entertain people who would use me up to get close to others and then be dumped..or entertain people who are not confident in my leadership duties,even if i am a welfare officer,or The Presdient of the united states,i have feelings,im human,i make mistakes,i lose control and everything.so understand me fer once,please people??

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Sunday, December 20, 2009 | 1:17 PM


Congratulations Kevin Jonas!!!!
yup,title says it all,congrats Kevin..tday,he's getting married (: in New York..(: miss that place lots..but dad says i need to get through O-Levels first coz fer one thing,they used up lots of money fer haji so now,they have to save up for our trip to The United States..he promised to bring me fer a final tour of the united states meaning from state to state and i cant wait fer that day..handphone's back from repairs..yay!!!..and im awaiting retest results on tuesday..OMG,i had a dream last night that i failed the retest and i stay back Sec 3,i remember crying and like not eating for a whole week,and when they countdown to 2010,i didnt want 2010 to come..hopefully that dream wont come true..currently brushing up on my choreography skills and my vocals,its been a long time..ok then..byeee

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Saturday, December 19, 2009 | 12:23 PM


Maybe its time i cared bout myself
maybe its time i let my ego run lose
i should stop being patient and nice to all those who mistreat me
i should stop pitying.
i can only trust a handful of people
and its tough
coz my secrets would always fall into the wrong hands
what kind of friends use ure secret against u?
what kind of friends are friends with you only coz u always give them a treat?
what are we turning into??
what happenned to friendship with trust and sincerity?
what chnaged you?
Bella's not blue
Bella's someone i really care about,my best friend
Bella knows me well
i know her well
When it's time,i hope u can be trusted Bella
i hope you realize that ure giving Jacob and Edward more attention
and that i seem to be a thing of the past
im sick of trying to smile all the time
im sick of acting like one bloody attention seeker
coz im hurt and who cares?
at the end of the day,
all most people care about is that they got wat they want from me

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Friday, December 18, 2009 | 3:12 PM


Wish she never would have came back,
wish i was never adopted
wish i was never abandoned by my bio parents
yeah great,hell yeah
i wish i knew why i was thrown away
i wish i had enuf money to buy myself a new handphone
she wants me to fail my retest coz she doesnt believe im good in education
and maybe its true
what am i good at??
i cant be trusted and throughout this times,ive been used by some people and my own family
forget it,nobody cares
i bet if i actually jumped down the building
people wont even notice till 1 week later
WTH??

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Thursday, December 17, 2009 | 6:52 PM


I'm damn pissed off..mum didnt wake me up on time..she woke me up at 9am,resulting in me taking the retest,half an hour late....then,she mishandled my handphone that it cant be turned on,brought it too the nokia shop and guess what??it can no longer be used..im pissed off man..to make things worst,she's not gonna buy me a new phone..urgh..i tot when she went haji,her attitude would change but guess wat??its just the same or shud sya worst,sumting must have gone wrong with her prayer....now where am i gonna get enough money to buy myself a new Handphone??its gonna fall from the sky or sumtin??pfft..urgh..wont complain much coz i know some ""Friends"" would sat i dnt appreciate what she's done and so on..WTH??thats the last straw,she broke my stuff,i'll break hers..let's see how she like it when i throw her handphone from one end to another..thats it..im on strike,i wont help her with the computer or any chores,i'll do my own chores,clean up my own room,and i;ll lock my room's doors so she cnat use my stationery,apparently inthis whole household,my room's the only room equipped with this..gosh!!!!

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| 2:54 PM


above is my Extended Family (: ..ohkayes so im in the last few pages of Breaking Dawn,yes aidk,soon i will pass it to you as soon as ure Free :p..which is ure bdae (X..hahaha..OMG,Jacob imprinted on nvm..read it fer ureself to know,im worried,im sick but i have retest tmrw..Chemistry and Physics..Blue's left a large gaping hole but i guess i was the one causing it coz i moved on,i dnt want to be like Jacob but i duno,i do feel what he's feeling in the book..annoyed with Bella..mayb i duno..aites then i gtg crash..im tired..byeee


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Wednesday, December 16, 2009 | 2:25 PM


sorry i havent been blogging fer long,been absorbed with lotsa things ranging from retest to reading Breaking Dawn,seriously,the Twilight Saga has done alot to change my perspective in life,the way each character feels or thinks makes me feel better..Jacob has tought me lotsa things and so has Edward,Esme,Alice,Carlisle,Seth & Leah..and more of them like Bella,yeah she reminds me of someone whom i believe to be a slut but in Breaking Dawn,she's really done some thinking and i hope that my real life bella would know and realize the truth..im sick of acting,yeah,i love the way life is now coz i know "theres a possibility" (X..(laughs)..watever..urgh..ok im still so tied,im gonna crash..byeee

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009 | 3:48 PM


currently at mai adik's residence,it may be crazy but me,yana,and mai's family are going to celebrate her dad's bdae..were going out soon and i'll be back home at 5am tmrw!!!finished reading eclipse,and now starting on breaking dawn..yup its crazy here in chai chee like real crazy..glad that im give this chance to like go with the whole family..Syakira like scabbers,the rat i now have..and mai's mum is afraid of scabbers,oh yeah,mai's baby died of i duno wat and gosh it stinks,just as bad as vampires!!!!that doesnt mean i love vampires but really,i pity jacob so much..poor him,silly Bella?!?!?..yeha oh well typically,tmrw reach home,sleep for awhile then get ready fer Sentosa..Saga 2267 is going well as planned,were already at our final stage..yup2..an awesome project not to be missed..i miss people ready,retest next week!!!oh gosh,its so demanding..ritee???how i wished we were paid to actually study..im glad ive learnt so much about mai adik,at least now when she has issues,i would understand and be there fer her as a godbrother..yeha we may have issues all the time but i guess our opposites kinda make us close??ive met the other life of hers,and i enjoy knowing her well.i wish everyone was like her,nice not caring bout anything else..i hate being hurt and hate acting like im okay..coz im just not into lying to myself coz its so sickening??ok..i gtg now..i hope everyone's ok aites??

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Saturday, December 12, 2009 | 11:14 PM


Finished reading Eclipse!!!yay!!!!now starting on breaking dawn..yay!!!!i really enjoyed reading Eclipse,it just shows how Bela is a major slut but well she's denying her love fer Jacob..mayb i seriously felt how Jacob felt every time Bella hurt him..i mean well,maybe Eclipse somehow reminded me of my life??yay that shud be it..im a Twilight Saga Junkie now..!!yayaya!!!and obviously i prefer team Werewolf..coz it frightens mai adik (: ...okie dokie..thats that..i dnt have naything else to blog about.shud i make a private blog????i dont know..

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| 11:21 AM


hei...back from the world of twilight (: ..not finished yet with eclipse but i will try by tmorow..i lazy to elaborate wats been going on few days back,but im trying to juggle reading,choreographing and studying..woohh..hectic..yuppy2..i wanna like just relax but i cant can i??well aites then..sunday to snetosa i guess..kk..gtg cntinue reading..byee22

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Friday, December 11, 2009 | 7:59 PM


Page 238,Chapter 10 of Eclipse..surprising how fast i read the book considering the fact that i slept late last night..woke up at 7 and was like feeling really sick coz got slight fever..Bella's fault..yeah in the book at that time,Bella was confronting dear Jacob about being mature about the anti-werewolf thingy..yeah so far the story's been really great..but obviously no connections to my fever,moving on,went clinic at bedok reservoir then samuel called asked where i was(supposed to have maths lesson with him)..told him i was sick then after that straight go to school in a limo..limo cab,correction..arrived in school in great style,i felt like royalty back there..blahblah after lesson finished,waited for mai adik but she didnt turn up,its ok..i felt sick so went home..sorry adik never tell you..then now im here,continuing with Eclipse..oh look countdown timer for eclipse (:

i miss you
but its impossible
my ego is in the way

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Wednesday, December 9, 2009 | 3:15 PM


woots!!!had great fun tday..woke up early coz needed to teman mai adik to school but she was sick so i stayed home till 12.30,meet mirrah at the bustop and set out on a quest for Eclipse & Breaking Dawn..went to popular,no luck no stocks so went times,turns out there was one Breaking Dawn,the last one!!!it was lil bit dented but heck care,i bought it anyway..then i was determined to buy Eclipse but dnt have and we were late in meeting shehan..went to meet shehan at century square then daya was there so four of us bought tickets to watch New Moon then went lunch at food culture..then we went fer the movie,Mirrah kept repeating the lines or should i say predicting the lines that they were going to say..i ended up following..than we left dayah and shehan after the movie and went up to white sands to go popular then purchased Eclipse..finally..then went to arcade to play Datona..guess wat??i,the most inexperienced driver on earth trashed mirrah 5 times..she only trashed me two times..the last battle was between an Auto car and a Manual car,the manual could go up to 352km/h while i could only for like 320km/h,it still could not catch up..not to mention we went crazy by saying that she represented Team Edward and i Represented Team Jacob..hahahah..Vampires were trashed..ok then after tired of winning,went neo print..snap2..then went homeee..im only at page 14 of Eclipse,must continue reading so far the plot is just plain awesome sey!!ok then,tmrw got lesson in the morning..dnt frget to vote fer Sezairi yeah???or Sylvia?ok..byee

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Tuesday, December 8, 2009 | 9:02 PM


Varsity Fanclub??spot them in this vid..not all are in but just spot them aites??the other is the behind-the scenes vid..enjoy!!!it was posted in the month of august 20o9,the other vid wil show you VFC going to some party and notice who is at the start and tell me what you think..enjoyyyy






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Monday, December 7, 2009 | 2:58 PM


i was bored and over the weekends,i started the habit of reading..unbelievable ritee??all 3 are novels..
  1. The Singpaore Story~Memoirs of Lee Kuan Yew
  2. The shack by William P. Young
  3. First family by David Baldacci

Notice that all the titles are somehow linked to poitics???i asked kak lela if she could borrow me eclipse by stephenie meyer or watever her name is and im probably getting it today..its going to be a challenge reading it but im willing to give it a shot..at least,by next year,i'll know wats expected to happen..miss lotsa people ready..jsut now went to buy lunch at food culture at century square saw maisarah's sis and mum,wanted to say hello but looking at the state the both of us are in,i just walked on,i dnt want people to think im so sombong but i didnt dare to like say hello coz i dowan them to think that im acting nice just to be friends with her daughter again.yeha,the few weels were hell without the usuals but i somehow pulled it off..meeting new people like liyana,spending time with dramanians,and mai adik i realize how much ive missed out of the world,how much ive been like closed to the wide world,connecting back with Calista,Eve & Valerie really brought me back to earth..im here now,ready fer anything that comes in my way.moving on..catched up wiht the amazing race tday..cheynne and his partner won..yay!!!!gd fer them,they deserve it so much..gosh im crazy over cars now..ok,i dnt know waht else to do so toodlles..

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| 2:13 PM



urgh!!!Edward Cullen is such a jerk looking back at New Moon,so was Bella Swan..she hurt Jacob Black's feelings and i may not know what a girl feels but then again,she just hurt a hot guy's feelings..like WTH???who hurts people just coz they aint gd enuf???Even Jacob was a jerk..like WTH???they shud have killed Bella off..she really deserves it..its hard to trust ..gosh..urgh!!!story reminds me so much of people around me,how they would seemingly go that very extra mile just to screw up my life,dang i guess jacob must have felt exactly how i felt..used and shoved aside..thats our only similarity,other than that,i have no other similarity to taylor lautner except for the taste of good cars..his Audi R8 looks so awesome and its his dream car..and i love it sooo much..its so coooollll but so expensive and takes in lots of petrol..so yeah,forget the car..but u gotta admit its one sweet baby!!!

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Sunday, December 6, 2009 | 2:58 PM


plans for next week:
8th December
-outing with drama peeps
-lunch
-New Moon(:

9th December
-geog & maths lesson in school

10th December
-Empty slot(No Plans thus far)

11th December
-KKH appointment(exercise programme)

12th December
-Empty Slot

13th December
-Sentosa trip with niece aqilah and khairunnisa

ohk..thats plans fer next week..(: i cant wait to go sentosa again,at least this time,i dont have to walk,it'll be trams and buses all the way..yay!!!im going to be the only guy but well,it would be fun wont it??retest is coming in a couple of weeks..two weeks or so..gonna buckle up,and prepare fer war i guess..oooh,tuesday outing with drama peeps..new moon again but duno if ocnfirmed coz only shehan and diana said theyre going,no answer from mirrah,ras cant go nad no answer from izza yet,i havent told her..i duno if adik wants to go again..if she wants then come along lah..hectic week and i am being so demanded around..well ok then take care readers..

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| 10:59 AM


It's not blue this time
its someone who has crushed my world
someone whom has made me so damn angry at her
someone who has seperated me from others
im just trying to prove that i can live without the usual group of people
that just coz u make me feel so down,
i cant go on with my life
i still can,im not stuck to just you guys
im moving on,one step at a time
im not going to be light on this matter,
even if u bow down and beg for forgiveness on my feet
people say ure just so nice
even ure family says so
but they dont know the amount of pain uve inflicted
i stood by you,
defended you
now im sick of being nice
dnt expect me to smile and laugh at you or with you
coz im out of ure world
like ure out of my world

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Saturday, December 5, 2009 | 4:21 PM


New Blog Song Lyrics
Stranded Lying here
Hope had disappeared I
thought she'd never go
I wasn't part of her story
She told me
Out of sight But still on my mind
I tried so hard to leave us behind
No matter what I did
Her memory lingered I can feel her

The separation was so hard
Never thought I'd revive my heart
I used to be lonely Til you saved me
I used to be lonely On my own
But now I know only you can show me how to love
I used to be lonely

Looking back it all makes sense
Unexpected twist of events
That led me straight to you
It was all meant to be Now I see

I needed her to get to you
You helped me make it thru

I used to be lonely
Til you saved me
I used to be lonely
On my own
But now I know only you can show me
how to love
I used to be lonely

There was a time
I thought I'd never love again (I'd never love again)
But then you came along and showed me that I can

I used to be so lonely
I used to be on my own but now
Only you showed me how to love

I used to be lonely Til you saved me
I used to be lonely On my own
But now I know only you can show me how to love
I used to be lonely

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Friday, December 4, 2009 | 9:21 PM


Loss of the people i live for is hurting me
im trying to be strong
but deep inside i cant
Jacob Black makes it seem so easy to just let Bella go
but what if im not ready to let Blue go??
what if she's the reason i'm breathing
what if i tell you,i miss the people i hate now?
What if i told you,im hurt by close friends?
What if i told you im happy?
would u choose to believe me?
would you keep ure faith in me?
would u not lie bout wat ure thinking?
i did lots of stupid stuff
i admit it,im inperfect
im a coward
who chooses to hide under his blanket despite being a guy
but its hard to be brave
i know u hate me
but u just deny it
i miss our times when we werent in this big mess
im moving on,trying to be strong
i expected you to understand
but you dont..
I aint going down easily

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| 6:47 PM


just woke up!!!ohk..basically today meeting mai adik and liyana and i guess once again New Moon is our movie choice (: shockingly im such an addict to twilight now that im gonna buy Eclipse at popular soon..its gonna be a challenge but i want to complete it b4 march next year (: im sure it has lots of chim words i could use elsewhere right??New Moon tought me lots of stuf..one of it was this:What would you do if the one you live for leaves you?..,my answer is,that person would have left an empty hole in my heart and taken my soul with them.and Blue has done just that..i promised,i waited but now i know ure in love with some1 else and it hurts me too much..i'll still be waiting,but i cant..im moving on,being with others has sort of healed the hole in my heart,but im lost.i dont inow what to do,all i wanted was you,but now,im just too far away

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| 9:33 AM


yo!!!!!yup u can see from above,went to watch New Moon just now..awesome..went to watch with calista,eve and valerie got more people but i lazy to type out..we bought tickets then went Pastamania fer lunch then we went to watch..it was great!!!10 thumbs up,so far so good the best movie ive watched thus far..i just wanna say that im happy with the way i am now..thanks fer the great evening..tmrw watching new moon again with mai adik and Liyana..well dats it..im still in gear for camp that its so hard to gear down for life..well dats it..niteeesss

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Thursday, December 3, 2009 | 9:10 PM


Ok,now the committe dance chorepgraphed by myself and mirrah..its just like a workout and im so tired now,catching up on sleep..ok then..take care and enjoy our moments


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Wednesday, December 2, 2009 | 7:44 PM


Heres Macbeth's performance fer gala night..due to technical difficulties the video ended b4 we ended our performance coz there was a technical difficulty..enjoy the vid..committee dance coming rite up..

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| 6:05 PM


Back from camp!!!!yay!!!i was late the first morning and made the others stand at my gate like duno wat crazy people..sorryyy..overslept then we took mai's van to school..blahblah..campers came..then we went to do ice breakers..Macbeth won which is my group then after that amazing race at sentosa,macbeth won again..hahaha..fun sia cmap..then 2nd day we did gala prep..shabana kept the whole group going then we had movie screening of drag me to hell which i swear was just plain scary..oh,,the night b4 got another movie which is the intrpeter which was really a great ,ovie..then gala nite on the 2nd day was plain disastourous simply coz the PA had new equipment and werent ready to handle our event..like wth???but overall it was quite smooth..Macbeth won best performance,Othello won best group and Glenn won Best F.A..uhum..oooh..mai won Best A.F.A..gd or wat???then we had this compulsory movie screening but i fell asleep in the girl's quarters..coz thats where they screened it..then woke up blah blah..floorball match,then go home..went lunch with feeq and mai and send them home by cab..now im here..urgh..have to start studying liao..pictures i have will be uploaded into facebook or i would put it on this blog..aites then..thats all..

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| 1:38 PM


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The name is Ahmad Asyraf Abdullah
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