This is What Dreams Are Made Of??Reality Check
Ever heard of when people get so excited that they did sumting new in life that they go:this is what dreams are made of??i think its major crap.i guess people only say that to make the other party pleased with whatever theyve provided fer the other person and its as good as lying.some people dont want you to lie but just say the truth out loud,but at times,when u speak the truth,they go hysterical and crazy so wouldnt it be better if u didnt speak the truth?Wouldnt it be better if you didnt have to keep secrets?when were all frank and honest with each other??why is that so difficult fer human beings?y must we keep secrets??y cant we just be proud of ourselves and speak reality instead of plunging the other party into eternal denial??yeah,i know i dont sound like Ahmad anymore but maybe its a new me..i guess im getting really self conscious about things..i duno,recent events have sort of tought me a lesson on life,the hard & harsh way of course.ive been practically too soft,bending to everyone's expectations and ive never stopped fer one second to fulfil what i want,its always about others..so wat up man??like ok im not cool as a typical guy,i dont smoke i dont pick out whatever but hey?does that make me not man enough?does going against the status quo make u look like an alien??people expect to much from me..like "oh,uve gotta be nice and polite"or "u have to understand me,im trying hard"at the end of the day,i would understand people more than i understand myself and it just bugs me now..yeah,after being a twilight saga junkie,mum says ive been very mature with my thinking and i know when people read this,they'll go like..right..mature..but im trying hard,bcoz i want to be mature,not childish like crying at the signs of stress,crying when i fight with people,feeling so hopeless and lost??i want to be stronger to better manage myself,not to entertain people who want me to be loyal to them,not to entertain people who would use me up to get close to others and then be dumped..or entertain people who are not confident in my leadership duties,even if i am a welfare officer,or The Presdient of the united states,i have feelings,im human,i make mistakes,i lose control and everything.so understand me fer once,please people??

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The name is Ahmad Asyraf Abdullah
I am a proud stagearts drama artistant
Friends are the most important thing next to family!
Single,(070410) will be remembered
I’m 16
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