Firstly,to Mirrah,im sorry fer being shallow
but i would like the truth
moving on..found this pics on my thumdrive so i quickly uploaded the whole collection into facebook..yup the SYF & SM days..in which i miss alot..ahaha..ok..so im just gonna take people's opinion into my heart and then like make gd use of their comments be it good or bad..the how must go on..for once i think ive made a good decision,let the matter rest..u know,some others r saying that im always finding fault or people's wrongs..but wateva..kapoosh..yeah hell yeah,from now on,its gonna be I instead of WE..hah,..ok later wathcing movie with tian poh..random..we used to hang out during the holidays last year and i guess wiht been great friends..ooh and surely most people who probably know me would think that im trying to bribe our SM..im not..its just a mvie..and is it just me or is it that some people whove always washed their hands over conflicts r finally getting involved..WOW!!!astonishing news..it is great to know isnt it??im gonna get a phonecall soon..its just an instinct..

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Forget it,
i dont care what you want to say,say it all you want
bcoz even if i try,
everybody else would just side with you
so i swear to forget watever dat has happenned
and just go on and carry out my duty as an actor..thats all

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you smiled and congratulated me when i got my role as kuang ho
yet now,you give me the cold shoulder
you talk badly behind my back
you shamed me in front of the Ensemble,
and you think its funny?
besties always look out fer each other
fine,im not President material,
fine,im not main lead material
but you have no guts coz u didnt tell me to my face
u act,all this while maybe all ure sweet words were just a facade
ya lah,setakat budak G what ritee??
This budak G will memorize his lines and excel as kuang ho
dont think i dnt know,
u chose to be SM bcoz u wanted to command people
you are simply jealous of me
i dont know what i did wrong to deserve this treatment
so tell me truthfully ,NUR MIRRAH AMIT,
am i your friend??was i ever your bestie????
or was it only games??
you think i like being Kuang Ho??
you think i enjoy being in the spotlight??
I DIDNT HURT YOU IN ANY WAY AT ALL,
I NEVER WANTED ANY OF THIS TO HAPPEN
ANSWER ME!!!!
I NEVER ENVIED YOU,LOOKED DOWN ON YOU
BUT YOU DO..
WTH IS URE PROBLEM??

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i wish i could have drama training every single day of the week,i dnt mind coming back for saturdays and sundays..a lot has changed from the last time i blogged although its really a short period of time..ive noticed and observed people so intently that at a glance,i know if the person is honest with his/her opinions..ok fine..so what if im starting to wear perfume???well when i stink,you complain and when i use perfume,u also complain..btw,friends dont say mean things that hurt people..so much of your promises..yeah right..see what i mean??promises are never in one piece,always broken..and it seems im an invisible wall but who am i supposed to tell it to??my only happinness is drama,the difficulty of memorizing my lines,the excitement,that laughter..i used to have tons to talk about to friends,but now it seems i dnt have anything in common..ive changed so much that i tell only myself what i really feel,and its like killing me..but cnt tell anyone coz theyre focused on their "N" Levels..so what am i to do??i admit,ive distanced myslef from tons of people,but its for their own good,i dnt wanna fight anymore..i dont wanna whine,i want to face it by myself and make me stronger..thats all but i need support..that support is drama..its all i need,its all i'll ever have..

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be right back,being very low in life
im vulnerable
on hiatus
until i get back to blogging,
take care dear readers

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argh!!!tired sia..it seems that my tagboard no tags leh..lol..kk..um..had drama,acted as kuang ho blah3,did stage blocking..then thats it..

Youre my bad habit
i cant quit coz ure so addictive

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im tired,im fatigued and my voice is husky that i can sound like Sylvia Ratonel when i sing i gotta feeling..ok lols..basically was a very normal monday lah..typical lessons then went drama..im confirmed as the role of kuang ho,im so overwhelmed..we went through scene by scene just now and i tell you the starting where i appear is so awesome..very awesome..but wont spoil the surprise..hahah..then went tampines 1 wif calista and valerie,walk3 then go home..tmrw late day and lucky i finish english homework liao..hahahah..thats it fer tday..bye2

i miss you,its like you left me
i dont get my quality time with you
and it upsets the balance i used to have
i need you to fill in my life
but youve changed so much
what happenned to that committed person?
its gone..i need you back
i miss you like jacob misses bella
and whatever hurts you,hurts me
come back..please..

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im sick and tired..because of my niece,mum and dad wont pay any attention to me..its stupid..yeah uve probably met my lil niece who probably stole and touched your heart..but because of her,im nothing but an invisible wall in this house..gosh..wat else are they gonna put before me..now its her..yeah,she comes before me in everyhting..icluding performances,i expected to be like celebrated coz i got the main role in the upcoming public performance but no,i get a "so what?"i cant wait to deliver the adam koo speech in front of everybody and not cry and weep like the others so that,i'll be able to show rage..even so,what makes you think they'll attend adam khoo??empty promises,thats all my family is good for..promises that can never be fulfiled,when they say promise,they probably mean to do it again,is there anything inthis wide earth that is fair,dont tell me i have to give in,ive given in too much and i get nothing for it..

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Today,im not left out by time..yup..signed up for myspace and twitter..awesomeeee..so add me up at the following sites aites??

Myspace:www.myspace.com/ahmadasyrafabdullah
Twitter:www.twitter.com/ahmadasyraf
Facebook:www.facebook.com/ahmadasyrafabdullah
Friendster:www.friendster.com/ahmadasyrafabdullah

so far,the most easiest to use is twitter and facebook,im still lost in myspace..but im giving it a shot..yeah???..OMG!!!havent do homework!!!!!!!!!ok set,lets do it now then..ok then to all those who dont have social networking sites,get them now!!!its convenient and easy.its not like u have to update every day wat??time management is key..ok..toodles

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yeah.its boring..planning to do homework tmrw..not much homework,chemistry and the N level English paper,so yeah..been rehearsing trying to memorise lines for Dragon's teeth gate..apart from that,munching on strawberries dipped with white chocolate coated with another layer of milk chocolate..yummyyyyyy..ahhahaha..k gtg and practice more..this is an update right??ok then..enjoy your weekends people!!!!

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hallo!!been busy lately with drama prep and so on..today had drama then went class deco for a while..drama was great..im shortlisted as Kuang Ho..yay!!!!!hahahah..everybody else has like another person with their same role and they have to sompete for the role but i dont have to..coz the role is mine ultimately..but theres a hard part to that..recognize the qoute?

The Greatest victory is to conquer one self.

yup..u got it..i have to overcome myself..kuang ho and me are way diferrent..Kuang Ho is serious and is seeking vengeance while im really a joker and i dont like being serious..anywaes..Aqil is Beng and i swear he is an awesome actor who can be retarded..hahaha..coz Beng is a retarded character..im glad i got the role as Kuang Ho,i worked so hard to get it and now finally,i believe my dreams will unfold,its like being touched by an angel..ahahah..yes..i will try to overcome myself and be victorious..with all the help i can get...unbelievable,i managed to juggle friendship,drama and studies..tomorrow going shoe-shopping with dad..yay!!!!aites thats it..byeee

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i wish i was there to catch them live..VFC picking me up..thanks VFC!!!!

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all i asked was for her and dad to watch me perform on 3rd April..first they said they'll go..now,they say they cant go..every other parent is going but mine is not..see??who the hell supports me in drama??not my family..they say $12 is too pricy fer tickets..but its fer our SYF budget..great,i dont feel like acting already..what for if theres none of my family supporting..i hate it,i hate it..they expect so much from me but they cant fulfil one bloody promise..i hate it....im sick of empty promises..all empty,EMPTY,EMPTY!!!!urgh!!!!!

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i'm puffed out..literally,went impromptu just now with rachita..she was bhodisatva..ahahahha while i was kuang ho..it was awesome..i show you my picture...see???ahhahahaha//weird ritee??
ahahahha...yup2..hhaha..anything for my darling drama club!!!!yeah im hella tired,losing my voice,.weird..hahaha..im really puffed out..but it was hell a fun lorgh..its like really the spirit of performance..i just wanna say that to those who think that drama is sissy,let me tell you,it takes a real man to be in drama,those guys who are not in drama and can look down upon us,r u really man enough to drss as a girl??i dont think so..things have changed..im sick and lost..i didnt eat ice the whole day tday,talk about it but no,it wasnt bcoz of dieting,it was bcoz i was pained and sad..to you,i miss the old you,ever since..you've been so influenced and unselfless these days,and its hard to smile..you always share my happy moments performing with me but today,you werent there to cheer me on..its like you took my spirit away..i need you to support me..

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Happy 15th Birthday Maisarah Mustafa!!!!!Love my Adik so,so much yaw..may your dreams come true and may you remain forever happy yaw!!!

next,BE jealous people,be very jealous,thomas fiss replied my message on FB!!!!OMG!!!!yeah,im so hell psyched,i shared the same internet space as a VFC member!!!!!!ooohhhhh..so honoured..its like meeting him in person yaw..ahhaahahahaha..yay2..ahhahahahahahaha..yay2..ahhahahahaha..see?gila liao..hahahaahahahaha..ok..lah..bye222

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heres some cover songs that i think he's so amazing yaw..hahahha..anywaes this is you belong with me & Down..enjoy yaw!!!!





I feel guilty but i love you babe

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this video was posted a few days back,so here it is VFC Fans,an update from VFC!!!!

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ever felt so low and hopeless?im on MC today but learning and preparing doesnt stop just coz im on MC.revised Standard Deviation in an assesment book,then after that read the vocab book and memorized a few favourites,revised Chemistry and recited Kuang Ho's soliloque part,then vomitted in the toilet..again..yeah..been vommitting from yesterday..i feel so weak..i wanted to go to school today bcoz mum said i was acting sick so i could skip school,how can you vomit fakely??yeah but couldnt get up so made my way to the polyclinic..got medicine,went home and slept..then did all those things i mentioned above..yeah,"N" levels are like mountains,you climb it to get to the top..it might be a boring climb up to "N" levels but then again,once uve achieved your results,the view is great..i still remember what Mr. Kang said b4 he left dunman "Suffer First,Sweetness Follows."..yup i agree with that phrase and mayb we did all as a class grow from good to great.. how awesome is that??kays,gotta chill and rest..bye222

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yeah..i feel so happy today..too happy that is..i just feel that my life is very well balanced now..had auditions just now..hahaah..fun gila..hahah..then go dinner with calista and valerie to relive our past..im so happyy...ahahahahah..oooh..2.4 just now,timing was 23 minutes..last year was 30 minutes..i improved!!!!wooohooooo!!!hahahah..and got school magazine tday..got my picture leh..ahahhaha..ok lah..thats all fer tday

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yeah..i quit ready what yet he wants me to meet him again..i know his behaviour too well.ive seen people who quit meet him and get humiliated in front of others so i aint gonna go meet him.i still have pride..dad's threatening that if i dont meet him,i have to pay computer bills myself..im just so stressed up what with the pressure of 'N' Levels than now my dad with his crap regimes,mum being biased with niece..it seems it makes no difference if im home...i want to run away but to where??why was it that out of thousand other kids,im the one being chosen by god to suffer so much..how am i supposed to do my F&N presentation which is due Wednesday??i hate life..i hate it too much..im getting cranky,im suddenly in love with the subjects i hate the most..this is probably the part where people start saying its fer my own good..but its not..i hate it..dad and mum only care bout other kids..not me..simply bcoz i dont live up to their expectations..they dont attend my drama performances,they dont bother to know how im feeling,all they care is that theyve hurt me.im getting softer and im breaking down..im sick of living up to people's expectations,im sick of being called kanchiong and all,i hate being misunderstood..i dont know what to do anymore..

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yeah..weekends are too short..whole of yesterday was a new hting..in the morning had Mendaki at bedok view..oklah not bad..than cabbed home,prayed showered and met liyana,Syasya & Mai adik at taxi stand then we cabbed to Vivocity..then so Mai's mum and kak zara..blahblah2 camwhored than go buy tickets aftet that went to eat at long john silver then we went to the rooftop pool htingy..didnt know the water was actually quite deep like knee or somewhere there..i thought it was like shallow..again camwhored then go watch Alvin & The Chipmunks..they certaintly spun my head right round,right round..addicted to that song lah..ahahha..then we go candy empire..y then it was 6+,so we all cabbed to bedok's Pizza hut where we celebrated the advanced birthday girl,my Adik maisarah..hahaha..ok..it was fun than serious ah,me and mai's mum were kecoh at vivo..we attracted the public's attention then Syasya and liyana acted like they duno me..hahahah..pictures will be up soon enuf..kk..finished homework today..but first in the morning went jogging at East Coast Park,boy was it breezy this morning..until 12+ like that than bused home..reach home,do homework,eat lunch,shower,pray and now im here..ok..byeee..

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Mirrah launched an exercise Regime today after school..its was tiring lah..but i feel it working already..i had to do last year;s committee dance while moving across the room,than had to run one round around the old block then 9 laps in 4D classroom..hu..tired..got homework,i'll do it like tomorrow..maybe going out with yan and mai tmrw..duno not confirmed yet..oh yeah..first lesson of mendaki at Bedok View tmrw..im like very scared coz i dnt inow anybody leh..how2??hahaha..preparing fer tuesday's drama auditions..we got our scripts liao..oklah..quite boring but we editing it i think..k..gotta crash..byeeee

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yeah..i have a task to achieve..Dr Warren wants me to be buff in 4 months time so i would lose weight and well enjoy life..be buff???how sey??aiyoyo..Hazmiraaaa!!!!!!i need go jogging..teman me can???anyone else want to accompany me jogging huh???oh dear how the hell to be buff sey??

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title says it all..very very tired..helped out at Abang Haris wedding..tired but fun..me and cuzzie Hanis went to put signboards at the roads and it was fun..hahaah..took lots of pictures at the "Throne".pther people even from kak nurul's side only got to take 2 shots and all of our cuzins took like 5 shots..hahaha..Candid shot,serious shot,crazy shot,nerd shot,sexy shot.ahhaha i upload them when i get them from kak nabilah..huhu..oklah,tired liao leh..bye222

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hah,ok bored..huhu..Lady gaga rocks..waiting fer mr sezairi look alike to come and take pic wif lil nisa..hahahah nuting better to do r wat??huhu..hahah,ok random yaw..huhu..waiting fer work to do..so far nuting yet yaw..hahaha..Sezairi is my idol yaw..ok why am i talking like some matrep yaw??hahahah..ok dokie..thats it,considered an update rittee??byeee..

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Happy new year!!!!!ok..i didnt get an opurtunity to like blog coz im really busy rewang and helping out at Kak Nurul and Abang Hariz's wedding..actually not much lah..help like throw away trash,vaccum house,tape up stuff..did i mention the Pelamin or "Throne" is really wonderful???no,not coz its blue but its just outstanding..its not blue its like i duno..creamy brown i think..its very near to dunman,in front of the JC there..its my oppurtunity to get to know dad's side coz i can honestly say i dont know most of them..i mean their names..so its kinda awkward..i know this sounds stupid but my cuzin,Mustaqim has almost the same face as...Sezairi..i was so uber shocked when i really saw the similarities..ahaha..yeah..had fun..i mean which family when like helping out with the wedding and rewanging actually plays a movie like planet 51..yeah..we watched planet 51 just now..ooohhh..yesterday got HSM3 on disney channel watched that there too..ahhaha..like the malay sying:Langkah Kanan or wat we say as lucky..hahaha..yeah its my dream to act but i dont know..its kinda scary to do it huh??argh..oooohhh...k im really hypered out and everytin so im gonna go catch some sleep..!!nites2

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