whats weird about life?its like an unending pattern that repeats itself across the dark pit of time.Life can be so unfair sometimes.but honestly,its sometimes fair if you dont go down under.yeah,im just moving on,putting my focus where its supposed to be.i changed for you,my only leading lady.But maybe the guy i changed into just couldn't fit you.yeah im a major jerk,and im proud of that.because you wanted it this way.you wanted me to change just so you could go around boasting to people,but ever thought that i might have been unique if i never changed?that i would be categorized as gay and softie but still i went through all that bcoz i thought myself unique to your eyes.but i guess not.who was i to you?i am just an ordinary yet uncool guy.it wont change.you said if i was a guy and that if i truly was your God-brother in the first place,i would know how to get to you.honestly,i dont really know how if you dont even wanna talk.two hands can clap but one hand cant.it takes two to play a game.i just cant bother already.i feel so hurt but i cant bother,coz i know no matter how much i try,i cant get you back,yet be assured that you would not be replaced and that my heart is locked now.locked because i cant accept anybody else as a god sibling.yeah,thanks for the memories.thats all you can say.so im saying it,thanks for the memories.and im just gone now.
Keep your Eyes on the stars,but keep your feet on the ground~President Roosevelt
KFC, Macdonalds,Century Square cineplex,Pizza Hut bedok,Vivocity,even my place. i could still see you so frightened in my hall,crouching saying you hear sumtin while playing blind mice. or how u cornered me in a big pillow and smashed me with it. how we cooked fried noodles,made drinks? how you watched TV with such a volume,i couldnt stand it? how cowardly i was,not daring to make the fire bigger while cooking. it all showed how much you meant to me,i want the world to see,what you mean to me.
just know that,im sorry,i never wanted make you feel so small. ive hurt you so much and i know that well,i was wrong i know i only have a part of you with me. i only need a second chance.but you know me too well. you know how blind i get in my pursuit of power. but i never wanted to make you feel like A nothing. ive never stopped praising you. everytime someone asks me bout you, i'll just give them a glare and walk off. i miss you lots. hearing your name hurts. every night,i think of you i'll change.please.
its so hard for me to see if my feelings fer you are true. i really dnt know,i cnt bear the pain and the temptation of saying hello. i cant forget you,i really cant.. its just hurting and killing me inside,i cant hang on any longer i turn moody without the company of friends and i could swear my heart just jumps when i see you yeah,it hurts for you to see me,it hurts for me too. you can move on and pretend but i cant.. its hard for me to breathe without you.. please??
you told me thanks for the memories, does that mean that ure leaving me forever? all those times,our calls that last until midnight, discussing 2010 camp proposals over the phone, wishing me good luck for the retest, allowing me to tell you my nonsensical problems, calling me up just to update about your life. all the jokes we cracked during Percy Jackson Alvin & The Chipmunks? Your birthday dinner at Pizza hut? how could i forget those picture perfect moments? Dragon;s Teeth Gate? how i cried under stress and yet ure that one person who chills me down how much i wanted to give up and yet you were there. i admit it,all i provided you was materialistic happiness. i could not understand your problems,but i listened and gave you my opinions. Drama camp 2009,we had a chat bout Blue,Bout Him. i could not be that perfect Brother for you,i admit. im not like the other guys coz when i become a jerk,you'll remember it forever. im supposed to forget all these?? i just cant. coz whether u knew it or not,you were special to me. how could i forget that sweet and tender smile?? the weird laughter you laughed out?? and everything unique bout you? i'm too scared to admit that mayb for once,ive fallen in love with you. coz im too scared of facing rejection again. but is that it?forget about the whole thing? the stars remind me of you, i see you everywhere. one more chance,let me be your Brother again.Please?would you consider it?
Life's been harsh and well bitter.Im Glad the whole Drama Controversy is actually beginning to clear up so i can actually focus on studies,but just when i thought this week would be for once wonderful,it rains today,like damn heavily and then my dearest 4gians are like starting to drift apart..dear oh dear,i dont want to see it happen but well,poof!!!seen it happen,like AGAIN!!..oooh and i am so uber addicted to Starstruck!!!!!yeah,after finishing revision,watch it all over again on youtube..well yeah..i think that will help entertain me for now..dear god,been failing almost every class test damn it!!!okay,then theres this part about people quarreling bout stuff lah..haiyooooo..its been happening so much that every one of their fights is like so setakat/has no real intention..haiyoooo..then i ask a lil bit,get labeled annoying,i postpone my math mock test,kena comment..haiyoooo..end it lah,favour lah!!!we all sec fours yet we squabble bout lil stuff..(including me too)..haiyoo..middle person agian..haiyah..crap lah..dowan to give a damn ready.i told oyu,be patient and understanding but you all not patient..im angry at both sides lah actually..haizzzz..what to do ritee??its life..
I cant do anyting,ive done everything in my power to end the war.but i cant coz ive done everytin..so yeah..affects me emotionally but what the heck?all this coz of sumtin so political??yeah my personal comments when shared with others become political,but hei,ive realized it.i have to really move on coz ive always seen the way out,but i never thought it to be there.so once again,im just sitting,waiting and just moving on,so yeah.time will do its trick for me and i'll just get back to revising and stuff??ritee??i dont want to talk about what happened in the past.the decision is being made whether i like it or not.i wouldnt say that triumph is within my grasp,rather its more like retribution and punishment to me.but no worries,i'll go through it.
D,i miss you so much i hurt you and its just immature. im sorry but baby,i love you and i'll love you like i always do
i bitched bout you but i was asked my personal opinion. i said the truth,what i really thought i never meant to hurt you in anyway. if i meant all those insults,why did i stand up for you when you were called bimbos by my affiliates?? yeah,hell yeah,Syaf was not wrong for revealing but you really want this? if i get to become president and it comes with the price of losing you, than forget it,i dont want presidency please,forgive me.let bygones be bygones. i meant all those happy memories and i regret all the sad memories. please mai,forgive me.i cant bear to hurt you you left and made me regret. i was a major moron but i wasnt targeting you or feeq please mai,..im sorry if it takes me to walk across the oceans just to grab you and say im sorry, i will do it.you left a hole in my heart when you left but youve put up with my nonsense. please??one more shot??
i dont know whats going on, i did not tear up the club. i dont want to coz it feels like tearing my soul but yet ure blaming me, denying the fact that you betrayed me yeah,in front of me,act like im the biggest thing on earth,Kuang Ho & everytin but then,you decide to hurt me. you say its a misunderstanding but i think its ure own misunderstanding not mine. ive lost everything,r u happy now? i lost that special girl in my life,we dont talk anymore i lost my best friends in drama, i lost the trust of my juniors,so how can you say that im turning them against you? i made it straight to you,that i would take on Presidency only if you grant me that chance i even said sorry despite the whole thing not being my fault, what do you want,you want me to suffer?? ive suffered you want me to focus on my studies?? done that you want me to not care?i didnt but this just crosses the line. you made them say that im tearing the club apart who is really doing?? if i wanted to rebel against you,i would have done it earlier. it doesn't mean a thing to me,surely you dont care I'm injured,Crippled,hurt,Sad,shocked,dissapointed. you've got what you wanted,so leave me alone.
Theres this girl in my life, who has an awesome laughter, is the envy of most people, and who is just so patient with me. I met this girl in Sec 2, and we were Stage Managers. At First,i fought with this girl because well she was just bitchy but i never thought she would be special to me one day. it was Friend to Best Friend to God siblings. 3 years of everlasting understanding passed and each moment i spent with her,was precious we went to the movies,we hanged out. we went all over Singapore at twilight in a van. We Shared Laughter and Secrets. We shared our lives with each other. We are still inseparable even after so many people try to put us down and this girl,is one i really adore. who never fails to leave me laughing my heads off, who is very stubborn like me who accepts me for who i am. i splurge on this girl,that i admit but she never asked for it. She helped me get through life. and well she's this special little lady who i want to spend every hour with, whom i truly love as a Sister. i need you to know,that i'll always be by your side. and that i will always catch you when you fall. Maisarah Bte Mustafa,You are amazing and i miss you.
its a very sad occasion today..our last moments in drama..alot of tears were shed,alot of memories were remembered.for the Sec 4 Express,their journey ends here but for us sec 4 Na,i think we would work hard and pass our N levels so that we can meet up with our juniors again.i'll miss everyone,Jing wen,Sam,Pei Ling,Syafinaz,Nabilah,Aeriqah and all the others who never fail to make me laugh.they are my remedy and i just wanna express my deepest thank yous.its been a roller coaster ride but honestly,as much as it was tiring,i enjoyed every moment of it,singing jai ho in the bus to ACJC,getting sleep on the bus,memorizing the script on board the bus,our tough yet amazingly fun trainings,and well all those tears and laughter we shared together.it was a great experience not to be forgotten.and it will definitely be held here,deeply in my heart.if you have any thing to share with me,to ask me or if you need a shoulder to cry on,i'll be there supporting you all the way coz you guys are my precious people who i will never ever forget,cheer up and well,enjoy every moment that you have,
070410 Was a bomb we need time to decide our priorities so i guess,it was right of us to just go our own ways yeah,it hurts,but what else can i say? you love him,so go. but if he fails,I'll be by your side,i promise Bella,only some know your real identity and i guess,we should leave it that way I'm a wreck,but i guess i'll make it through??
Even if i fall in love again with someone else,it could never be the way i loved you..
Love you Bella, i promise to be yours forever i promise to try my best to give us a shot if we dont make it.then its fated to be but we'll last long, we'll keep it low and as long as im by your side,i'll sweep you off your feet i'm yours now Love you so much!!
its ended,4 months hard work paid off Stella Kon,called it awesome my dreams all came true to have a single spotlight on me,i got it to be loved by my juniors,i got it im gonna miss everyone.. and i just cant bear to leave the club 51 People,from all walks of life came together to create the performance and then,51 people made the world of arts,a better place
Kudos to all Drama Stage Artistants!!! we all rock!!!!
The name is Ahmad Asyraf Abdullah
I am a proud stagearts drama artistant
Friends are the most important thing next to family!
Single,(070410) will be remembered
I’m 16
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If you meet me outside,say hello,i wont eat you up
I’m a StuDent/fwen in dunman Secondary, A Son in tampines
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